Jan 25
it's been years. why do i still think about those people.
#vent#my brother really did me dirty by roping me into all that#at a time when i was vulnerable#and frankly delusional#i know i said some regrettable things but.#my whole life had just been upended in ways i had never expected#my father had outed me and my mother had scorned me for it (which she still denies btw)#my world had fallen apart and they used that to get me to join them#i spent half of my grandpa's inheritance getting us there#and then the other half escaping.#and now on the other side of it all my life doesn't make any sense to me#as if the whole world died at the same time i did#and he did NOTHING to defend me.#he just stood by and let it happen.#i mean.... i get it okay?#i wasn't in my right mind and i acted very foolishly#i was arrogant and blind and heartbroken#you could never have saved me anyway.#... ugh.#i rambled a lot more than i expected to#sorry about that
