I think we need to talk more about friend crushes like I dream of going on cute little outings with my friends and having fun and growing old and sharing our lives together in the way that I get to be the fun Auncle (or my preferred gender neutral version of aunt/uncle-- Oyster) and give their children mildy infuriating but not bad habits, and be at their weddings and help hold their hair when they are drunk at the club, I wanna buy new clothes with them and go thrifting and find 'the heat' together, I want to be so close that people mistake us for a couple but we really aren't (and the enjoyment is from the fact that we aren't a couple but we are close enough to seem like one-- I don't secretly want to date them).
I love my friends and I have platonic crushes on all of them and I daydream about being really good friends with people and sharing my life with the people that I love.