Hi love,

How long have you been seeing this therapist for? That’s a very odd, and wrong, thing for your therapist to say. I would try telling her about your paranoia and delusions one more time before looking into getting a new therapist.

That’s a very admirable goal that you have, wanting to go to Jordan and Lebanon to help the Syrian kids. That shows that you’re a really awesome, kind, and caring person! Maybe in the future you can make that a reality! ( I want to do something similar, so maybe I’ll see you on our journeys :) ) In the meantime, though, can you help out around your community to fulfill that need? That’s why I help out on here: this blog gives me a purpose and therefore helps with my own depression. Maybe you could join a similar blog, or volunteer at your local hospital, volunteer at your local pet shelter, or look into other volunteer organizations in your area! What do you think?

Why did your therapist keep your list of top 10 worse memories? Do you know?

Hi love,

Yes, I think this is a good time to bring this up to her! To be honest, there is no right or wrong time. It’s whatever you feel comfortable with and whenever you feel ready. But in my personal opinion, the sooner the better. The sooner you tell her what’s going on, the sooner she can begin helping you with all of this!

Good luck, please keep me updated!

Hi love, sorry for the late response!

I know you sent this in about a day or so ago... how are you feeling now? Are you alright? Please update me on how you’re doing because I’m worried about you!

Hi love,

Yeah, 85 a session is still a lot of money. Ugh, I wish therapy wasn’t that expensive. We recently learned in class that America has one of the worst health care systems in the world, even though we have such great technology. Because healthcare is so expensive, people aren’t getting the help they need and deserve. It really sucks :(

You’re not a loser, love. Struggling with a mental illness does not make you a loser. If anything, it makes you strong. It makes you a fighter!

Have you told the person who prescribed you the lexapro about what you’re going through? Maybe they can switch the lexapro to something else or adjust the dosage?

DeathAddict Part2 - he had committed suicide. My other friends are giving me so many mixed messages. I guess I should try another tactic. I spoke to my dad about him maybe paying for more sessions for me and he just laughed and said it looked like I’d have to sort out all my life problems in the three free sessions. Yesterday my course ended and because I’m so awkward I didn’t get people’s phone numbers!! No you haven’t shared that thing with me, can if you want

Hi love,

Lexapro usually takes 4-6 weeks to kick in, so it’s possible that you need to wait a little longer to see if it starts to help. Have you told your prescribing doctor about these symptoms? If not, I would do that ASAP!

Oh, I’ve talked to you before, haven’t I? I remember you sending in a message about knowing someone from the Halifx shooting. 

I’m sorry that it took your friend three months before she texted you. Have you tried talking to her about this? Like asking her why it took her three months to text you and explain to her how hurtful that is? I know it seems obvious that she should realize these things on their own, but sometimes people are so wrapped up in their lives that they don’t realize how their actions (or lack thereof) are affecting the people closest to them. Basically what I’m saying is that you should just lay all of this out on the table once and for all.

What mixed messages are your other friends giving you?

I’m sorry your dad reacted that way. That was very callous and cold of him :( Is there anyway you could raise some extra money to pay for your own sessions? Like maybe babysit, get a part-time job, anything like that?

As for the list technique... whenever you are feeling down or feel like you have nothing to live for, get a piece of paper. Write down all of the people you love and care about. Then write down all of your favorite hobbies. Then write down all of your dreams and goals. Then write down all of the things you want to do in life. Then write down places you want to visit and people you want to meet. Then write down your favorite food. Your favorite music. Your favorite flower. Your favorite season. Your favorite animal.

Then take a look at the list you created. See all of these things? These are all things you will miss out on if you kill yourself. These are all reasons you should keep living! You can either keep the list somewhere where you can pull it out easily and add to it, or you can create a new list each time you feel this way. Hopefully making this list will help you realize all of the things that you have to live for. 

Hi love,

Oh, I’m sorry! I thought you were going to message me on skype so we could talk better? Maybe I misunderstood! Do you want to talk on skype, which would be much easier for me, or do you want me to answer your messages on here?

I’ve been thinking about jumping off this really tall bridge that’s really common suicde spot in the area, I don’t think there are any survival rates. And the rails are really low, I could slip over no worries. I’m going to try and get anxiety meds first (suggested by Jen) but if it falls through n they won’t give them to me, I’m going to jumo -DeathAddict

Hi love,

So sorry for the late response! How are you doing?

Is there anyone you can tell about these thoughts that won’t judge you? Like any friends you have that are known to be very non-judgmental and open minded?

I think it’s only really an issue if you enjoy causing others pain. Like if you enjoy murder crime scenes and suicides so much that you murder someone or encourage someone to commit suicide. Does that make any sense?

Can you do me a favor? After you try the anxiety medication (which I’m very happy you’re going to give a try!), if they don’t work... can you please message me first? Before going to that bridge and jumping, can you please message me. That’s all I ask. Do you think you can do that for me?