#- jasper

I am quite happy people enjoy my art, but I am not confident enough with my skills as an artist to make art for others, especially not for something in return, whether that be art or money. It gives me a lot of anxiety to make a piece perfect and I often crumble very badly under the pressure, but I also lack the backbone to tell people no if they ask me for art of any kind.

Please, do not ask me to draw something for you, unless I offer it. I appreciate offers of money, art, or other goods in return for art, but I unfortunately get put into a self conscious spiral while trying to do said art, even if the person ends up loving it or says it's good. It's the anxiety of attempting to please someone and being scared about being hated forever, or that the receiver hates it even if they say they don't. It's why I decided a long time ago art could never be a source of income for me, unless it's like... making premade art to sell, because then it erases the fear of someone being disappointed in me.

I know it seems weird to say "please do not attempt to give me money" but I just... cannot. The anxiety outweighs any money price you could put on my art, and the price I think would outweigh the anxiety is MUCH more than my art is worth.

not everyone who’s applied will get in - we have almost 300 applicants at the moment, so obviously as much as we’d love to accept everyone, we just don’t have the space 😅