#*ugly sobs

Mar’i Grayson I Nightstar

just that they have been inactive for so long/ not doing the fandom you like. However, about twice every year or more, you would just go and see their art gallery and just want to cry because they are still sO GOOD even like YEARS LATER.

AND YOU CAN JUST FEEL THAT EXCITEMENT AND AWE LOOKING AT THOSE ARTWORKS BUt you gave yourself a reality check that the artist would not be posting anytime soon/ doing that fandom.

So in the mids of all the happiness that floods you, you are also left with a mild heartache.

Because I am just feeling this right now at 2 in the morning I have no idea how am i going to sleep with all these emotions running inside me.

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edit:: also i know it is rude to go up to an artist and demand them to draw something that I myself like, because its selfish. So i won’t do that and hope this doesn’t come across as that.

Listening to Sanam OST and ugly sobs in Harib

“Saamne qo khara hai kinaara meri zindagi ka”

“Jaanay yeh khudayi hai. Dil mein tu samayi hai”

*so many feelings