Apr 30
i know to find a partner system we have to keep putting ourselves out there or whatever but. our groomers and abuser ex partners have tainted everything for us, we just can't trust anyone anymore even after so many years. everyone has someone. all our friends are taken with their own partner systems. we'll never be anyone's first choice as hard as we try, and trust me, we've tried. it makes us want to cry and isolate forever until we die. wipes vomits from mouth
#.txt#can't stop thinking about them. we feel haunted#this might be a huge reason why we don't talk to people. everyone gets their happy ever afters except for us and it makes me sick#like. What's even the point if you're not irls. what's the point if we're not the first choice. it's exhausting to talk and open up#sorry all of our friends are taken with partner systems and shit so a lot of us are too busy bubbling in jealousy and wanting to cry#we aren't their first choices so it's hard to get the motivation to talk and text perio#*period#yearnposting
