#*muse things

☾ - sleep headcanon

caspar barely sleeps. at all. he’s usually always running on just a couple hours, but that’s how he’s always been. he goes to sleep late (for no real good reason), gets up early, and repeats that process. it’s typically pretty obvious, with dark circles under his eyes and a look to him that just screams exhausted, but he can never get himself to sleep in. occasionally, he’ll take a nap during the day after work if he just can’t handle it, but that just means he’ll stay up later, and it really doesn’t fix the problem at all. he’s never been good at problem solving.

★ - sad headcanon

a part of caspar feels like his life is never going to be anything significant. he’s lived in maryland his entire life, and he doesn’t know what’s beyond the city limits. he doesn’t know what he’s good at, if anything at all. common thoughts that run through his head include him worrying about disappointing his parents, not making a decent life for himself since they worked so hard just to make sure they could get by. zia’s cafe cannot be his calling, can it? will he actually be working there for the rest of his life? will he ever make any kind of positive difference in the world? he really does not know, and that’s the part that terrifies him.

■ -  bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon

caspar is extremely unorganized. his apartment isn’t necessarily ‘dirty’ but it’s most likely chaos at any given time of the day. he doesn’t even have that many things, so it’s a mystery how he can create such a mess, but leave it up to him to stick things in the corner and promise to put it up later (and later never seems to come.)

♡ - romantic headcanon

the only person caspar has ever loved on that kind of level is rory, and he’s convinced she’ll be the only person he ever feels that way about. what they had was too special for him to ever put into words, and he blames himself for the way their relationship fell apart. he didn’t try hard enough to make things work, and he can’t shake that feeling off. people would tell him it was just how things were meant to be, but he still can’t understand how their relationship coming to an end was ever a ‘good thing’, and time to time, he sits and wonders what he could’ve done differently to make sure things had turned out better for them.

♥ - family headcanon

he’s an only child, and even though his circumstances weren’t the best growing up, caspar is extremely close to both of his parents. he doesn’t know much of his extended family, but there’s never been any drama to divide them. his parents are his world, his heroes, and the people he looks up to. his dad has several medical problems due to the car accident he was in that left him disabled, and caspar worries about him every single day. wondering if he’s going to get worse, going to get better, or if nothing will ever change. at the end of the day, caspar couldn’t have asked for better parents.

☮ - friendship headcanon

friendships are extremely important to caspar, and he cherishes every single person in his life that he has the privilege to call a friend. he’s always worried that he isn’t supportive enough, or that he isn’t making enough time for them--since that’s a problem he’s had in the past. there’s also some kind of repressed insecurity that no one really wants him around that often. all that aside, though, he doesn’t know where he would be without the people he’s met at marlborough, or what kind of person he would end up as, since every single person there has changed him in some kind of way.

☯ - likes/dislikes headcanon

he LOVES taylor swift. he’s been listening to her for years. his goal in life is to see her live in concert some day. he thinks she’s a genius when it comes to song writing, and he doesn’t know how its possible for him to relate to one artist and their music on such a level as he does with her. at any given moment, he has a taylor swift song stuck in his head. his favorite album is speak now, followed by fearless and red.

▼ - childhood headcanon