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Come Out of the Shade by The Perishers 

Was it love or just something that reminded me ofSomething that felt a lot like, but wasn't love?Just friends, friends then until the endYou know I still pretend, just friends

I believe works from her point of view. I feel that last line a lot is her. Especially as someone who also suffers from anxiety, I feel like that’s such a common thing to you know.. to find it easier to just ‘pretend’ its just friends rather then face the fear of rejection 

Just friends, am I a fool to be asking forA fool to wish that we could be more than friends?

Again. Peak feelings of someone in love who struggles with anxiety in my opinion. 

It does also work for Simon too of course, but when I put in the song I had Jess in mind more then him. 

Warmth by Bastille 

Never good just the bad and the uglyLaid infront of youNothing quite like seeing the world through the TV's we knowFeeling helpless I look for distractionI go searching for you, wandering through our city to find some solace at your door

I can't stop thinking about itI can't stop thinking about itTell me did you see the news tonight

Hold me in this wild, wild, world'Cause in your warmth I forget how cold it can beAnd in your heat I feel how cold it can getHold me in this wild, wild, world'Cause in your warmth I forget how cold it can beAnd in your heat I feel how cold it can getNow draw me close

Again. Anxiety related and just in general how overwhelming it can be living in this world we are in today you know? And just having Simon be there. Being her rock and keeping her steady. 

When I’m With You by Ben Rector 

I go a little crazy sometimesCan you believe it?Yeah, I swear I'm fine, that I'm alrightWhen I'm barely breathingThought I could find my way back homeBut I get lost alone

But when I'm with you I'm no longer wanderingAnd when I'm with you, I swear I can breatheWhen I'm with you, I know who I am and who I wanna be

As this certainly works from Simon’s perspective too, I felt so strongly this was more Jessica

Strong Enough by Matthew West

Well, forgive meForgive me if I'm wrongBut this looks like more than I can doOn my own

I know I'm not strong enough to beEverything that I'm supposed to beI give upI'm not strong enoughHands of mercy won't you cover meLord right now I'm asking you to beStrong enoughStrong enoughFor the both of usYeah

Again. Jess needing Simon to be her rock. 

So Contagious by Acceptance

Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpectedAnd I can tell you I've been moving in so slowDon't let it throw you off too farCause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)To say you're the only one breaking me down like thisYou're the only one I would take a shot onKeep me hanging on so contagiously 

After everything Jess went through... I feel like the last thing on her mind would have been love. She’d have been more focused on just getting out of bed every morning. Trying to get through each day and navigate her new life after all that happened. Trying to find things to help her cope, getting through each second. Working on herself and figuring it all out. 

So, I feel as if the first verse is very much in relation to that. I feel like Simon would end up unconsciously flirting with her so casually a lot. And that it happens so often that he does it when they’re around other people. Simon doesn’t even think anything of it. And Jessica pretends she doesn’t see it and tells Kyle he’s crazy... (He ain’t and they both know it) But ultimately she sees it, and she feels what hes feeling too. She just needs sometime to readjust her entire world, yet again, with even entertaining the idea of having love in her life. But she wants too, and she will be there right with him.. she just needs a minute to catch her. 

Last verse, last two lines in particular... I feel that there’s no one else (that we’ve seen anyway) in Jessica’s life that could have gotten her to open up the way she has. To have gotten her to be more ok with being out in the world more. To have gotten her to a place where not only does she see herself have a future. A future where she can live in this world more then she was before Simon. Not only just that... but to a place where she can have happiness and love. Not only that... someone who thinks shes worth it. And who looks at her like she hang the stars in the night and who could take on the universe. 

How I Leapt from the Stratosphere by Mountains of the Moon

But now I have learnt to travel with the windAnd you have got my body in a violent spinI'm out of controlAnd I feel at home

Like the islands in the seaWe are united in the deepAnd in the highland of our dreamsIt's you and meIt's you and meIt's you and meIt's you and me

*this song is also one of my favourite songs btw, I absolutely just adore it