Thinking about Gorya pushing Shasha away and teasing her, and trying to rile her up and make her jealous because she wants to force Shasha to be honest and admit her feelings...But also because she herself is running away from her feelings, because it's much easier to be near Shasha and pretend she doesn't feel anything for her when she's annoying, because she doesn't know how to deal with her feelings for Shasha when she's honest and vulnerable... And the fact that she wants to prove to herself that she has options,because she is scared to admit she likes someone since no one she liked liked her back, and putting herself out there for someone who is known to be a player is too dangerous...And also choosing Kris because as Kris said she's basically the same as Shasha and it feels both familiar but not as emotionally intense, but precisely because she's not Shasha it's not what she wants and now she has to face that Shasha truly is the one she likes and and and-
