❛ this is all i know how to do: carry loss around until i begin to resemble every bad memory, every terrible fear, every nightmare anyone has ever had. ❜
you understood, you really did. that is why you offered hand to him, allowing him the choice of touch or not. but your words were still going to come, whether he happened to want to hear them or not. “ i know. i understand & it sucks, “ you commented. “ but that is what they wanted us to feel like. because if you think you’re a monster, you stop fighting. & you know what they always wanted us to do ? stop fighting. everyone in there had the abilities to do remarkable things, & i worked it out years ago, they wanted me to change the tide of wars. a naturally destructive force; and couldn’t be traced back to them. but this is why i am telling you, loss is not your fault. energy is a circle; they’re visibly gone, but energy cannot be destroyed. & so you have to trust me when i say let go of your blame. let their energy be transferred elsewhere. “
