#* journal

In a few hours, I’ll be having lunch with some of my closest friends and I can’t believe I actually have close friends now. Six years ago, if one tells me that I’ll find my best friends when I move back to Korea, I would have definitely laughed at them in the face. When I was 15, I thought going back here could be the worst decision my parents ever made about raising me but, I was wrong. Even if they weren’t there for much of my birthdays, I still want to thank them for moving to back to Korea. The friends the I’ll be having lunch with are like diamonds, hard to find but are definitely a girl’s best friend. It took me six years to finally find them but now, here I am about to have a great birthday with the people I love most.

There is going to be a party later tonight in a club a few minutes away from where I live, of course there always is. Aren’t you tired of hearing all my drunken entries? That’s why I tried to write this so early and it’s not even 9AM yet, I should still be asleep but I want to enter something good and something actually worth reading this time. I think this year, I’ll try to tone down the partying and the drinking but who is Ahn Sanhee without all that, really? I think it has become such a part of me that I can’t let go of it. I’ve been cutting down the smoking recently though, I really hate what they do to my teeth and photographers don’t like it. I think I breathe a little better now. 

Sometimes I feel like time is going too fast, I’m sure I turned 18 yesterday so why am I 21 today? I can’t believe I can actually legally drink in California! Maybe, I should go back there and just go bar hopping legally, this time.

I wonder if my parents would greet me? Well, they always do, but sometimes I feel like their secretaries remind them of me so they don’t completely forget. They got me a car last year, I wonder what materialistic gift is coming this year? I’m not complaining though, but I would love a five minute phone call over a 5 billion Korean Won car. But, both would be great.