#(m.jean)

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jean

𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒. tries to do everything at once ; doesn’t know when to stop and take care of themselves ; bends over backwards for everyone even if someone did them dirty ; has entirely too much on their plate

𝐓𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐔𝐒. idealistic ; spends a lot of time trying to impress others ; doesn’t like to apologize ; eating is a coping mechanism or just addictive personalities in general ; a tad co-dependent

𝐆𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐈. the most flip floppy people ever, what’s today’s mood? ; never apologizes ; in denial 90% of the time ; their way is the highway ; desperately needs a break ; they have a hard time setting goals because their goals scare them

𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑. the literal meaning of i’ll give you the shirt off my back ; isolates themselves in fear of someone hurting them ; wants to change but is scared of change ; complains a lot but never takes advice people give them

𝐋𝐄𝐎. no one takes them seriously because they feel they always have to portray themselves as the fun one ; is actually really sad inside ; honestly needs a hug ; exhausted always

𝐕𝐈𝐑𝐆𝐎. can dish it but can’t take it ; rushes everything ; anxious ; plans their future but forgets to live in the moment ; sometimes ignores their friends because they have so much on their mind ; talks about themselves a lot and sometimes forgets to ask the other person how they are

𝐋𝐈𝐁𝐑𝐀. solves everyone’s problems but their own ; is actually really sad and lonely ; gets easily heartbroken but tries not to show it ; will do anything to justify bad decisions ; honestly just wants everyone to love them but doesn’t really love their self

𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐏𝐈𝐎. easily set off ; will give anyone the cold shoulder at any time even without reason ; keeps a lot in ; so observant that they often times find out things that hurt them ; too many “what ifs” swirling in their heads ; has trouble showing their true self

𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒. impatient ; brash ; commitment issues ; body issues ; doesn’t realize they don’t need to change for anyone ; has a lot of different goals to a point where they get overwhelmed ; just wants to disappear and do what they want without anyone questioning them

𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐍. scared people won’t like them unless they’re at the top of their game 24/7 ; takes a lot for them to talk about their feelings ; secretly struggling ; fake happy ; needs a plan but doesn’t know what that plan is ; confident but insecure at the same time ; wants to be stable but sometimes wishes they could drop everyone’s expectations of them and live normally

𝐀𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒. gets heartbroken like 30 times a week ; trust issues ; can be unmotivated and disinterested ; feels they have to adapt to every person they meet so they can be liked ; doesn’t know how to tap into their emotions despite being very intuitive ; confused ; expects little

𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐒. empathetic often to a point of no return ; plays the victim ; doesn’t know when to say no ; cynical ; hermit ; is very impatient ; trusts everyone too much ; can be secretly very critical and judgmental ; can only tolerate maybe ten minutes of social interaction ; needs a lot of validation

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you had bloomed into something: but you still had your thorns around your heart. light casted by golden hair and brown eyes: yet here you were dancing with the devil. how you were dressed: crop top exposing stomach: colors settled between black and red. An old habit that fell short around him. you could never erase your history shared in blood.

you can hear the bassline in the song: you can hear how he breathes. his heartrate. how everything that seems so simple is so much louder. your eyes eyes caught looking at him. you know how he looks: how charming he can act. you know the facade, you always had since you were fourteen. yet here you are too close to a wolf, like a lamb to the slaughter.

you exhale, and mouth against his ear. "you keep staring, what do you want? I said you could do what you want, it doesn't mean I won't fight you.

You had taken a chance. It was spring break: a time that you had time for yourself, and yet you chose to hang around him. You chose to take him up on the offer of a flight ticket to visit the foxes and it didn't bug you as much as it should have. Not when you were with him. Everything seemed simpler when you were with him. You didn't have to worry: the voices in your head got quieter and you preferred that.

Things had changed after you had given him that plushie. Which speaking of that: he carries it with him. He had found a way to clip it to the bag and you had been a little too pleased that he had loved it. You never had anyone appreciative the things you do so it meant something to you.

But tonight was different than the casual walks on the boardwalks. Jeremy had asked beforehand: he didn't want to impose by dragging you out. He knew you had your limits when it came to socializing and the foxes were a little more rough around the edges for you considering your history with their captain.

You were hyperaware of how you were dressed. Even though the clothing was comfortable to you, to others you might have been overexposed. You hadn't exactly told Jeremy what you were going to wear either: everyone assumed some shade of black. You had opted with a blue crop top, that cut around the mid of your stomach and black jeans. You weren't uncomfortable, and the jacket you had brought had been one of your jackets with your last name written on it but that was tucked away in the car. Jeremy had warned you it would get a bit warm here tonight.

He had mentioned this night was different: a rave night or something. You weren't exactly sure of what he had meant. Ravens didn't exactly go out like this. You were still having new experiences: and you didn't hate any of it. You were aware of the pulsing of music and how electronic sounds seemed to echo. It wasn't the worst thing, but you were unsure about what exactly was going to go on.

Your group had a table: drinks on it. Evidently gotten by Minyard. Old habits die hard, you could already see Kevin nursing a drink. You had looked at the color of some of them: you noticed that Josten had taken one but hadn't drank out of it yet. Most of the the table outside Josten and Miyard had already had sips from their drinks. You didn't think anything of it: Jeremy had something but he seemed fine. He was chatty as ever and nothing was impairing him: at least that you knew of.

You reached for one that was a pink color. Your fingers bringing it closer to you and smelling it. It smelled like strawberries? You didn't see anything wrong with it and Josten's "It's on Andrew don't worry about it." was an unspoken thing that seemed to be at the table.

You didnt see the harm in taking a drink. Not when everyone else was and it wasnt like you were alone. He was with you and nothing would happen. It wasnt like this was california. The drink itself tasted almost too sweet. There was soft chatter around the table but something made yout take a secondary sip.

Minyard was looking at you he almost seemed to grin and Josten had this look of surprise laced in his features and you didn't quite understand that. You instead looked at Jeremy. Which sometimes was a lot to look at and you had to remind yourself to stop staring at him.

JEAN MOREAU. 

001.  smoking — the habit  of  inhaling  and  exhaling  the  smoke  of  tobacco  or  a  drug 

002.  binge  drinking — the  consumption  of  an  excessive  amount  of  alcohol  in  a  short  period  of  time 

003.  drug  abuse — the  habitual  taking  of  illegal  drugs 

004.  nail  biting — a  common  body  language  sign  of  anxiety/ tension 

005.  lip  biting — a  common  body  language  sign  of  anxiety/ tension 

006.  night  owl — a  person  who  is  habitually  awake  or  wakeful  at  night 

007.  early  bird — a  person  who  rises,  arrives,  or  acts  before  the  usual  or  expected  time 

008.  negative  attitudes — a  philosophy  of  approaching  life  with  criticism  and  pessimism 

009.  positive  attitudes — a  philosophy  of  approaching  life  with  optimism  and  confidence 

010.  swearing — the  use  of  offensive  language 

011.  superstitious — an  irrational  belief  that  an  object,  action,  or  circumstance  not  logically  related  to  a  course  of  events  influences  its  outcome 

012.  inspecting  fingernails — a  common  body  language  sign  of  boredom 

013.  scratching  your  neck — a  common  body  language  sign  of  uncertainty 

014.  foot  and  finger  tapping — a  common  body  language  sign  of  stress  /  impatience 

015.  nose  touch — a  subtle  body  language  sign  of  deceit 

016.  flipping  hair — a  common  body  language  sign  of  craving  attention 

017.  twirling  hair — a  common  body  language  sign  of  flirtation 

018.  cracking  knuckles — a  common  body  language  sign  of  readiness 

019.  hands  behind  back — a  common  body  language  sign  of  confidence 

020.  finger  pointing — a  common  body  language  sign  of  authority 

021.  hands  on  hips — a  common  body  language  sign  of  readiness 

022.  hands  in  pockets — a  common  body  language  sign  of  mistrust  /  reluctance 

023.  frequent  touch — a  common  body  language  sign  of  warmth  /  familiarity 

024.  throat - clearing — a  common  body  language  sign  of  rejection  /  doubt 

025.  jaw - clenching — a  common  body  language  sign  of  hostility 

026.  eye - rolling — a  common  body  language  sign  of  irritation 

027.  head - tilt — a  common  body  language  sign  of  interest

028.  whistling — to  emit  high-pitched  sound  by  forcing  breakthrough  a small  hole  between  one’s  lips  or  teeth;  usually  to  a  tune 

029.  humming — make  a  low,  steady  continuous  sound; usually  to  a  tune 

030.  perfectionism — refusal  to  accept  any  standard  short  of  perfection 

031.  photographic  memory — the  ability  to  remember  information  or  visual  images  in  great  detail 

032.  paranoia  — a  mental  condition  characterized  by  delusions  of  persecution,  unwarranted  jealousy,  or  exaggerated  self - importance,  typically  worked  into  an  organized  system 

033.  exaggeration — a  statement  that  represents  something  as  better  or  worse  than  it  really  is 

034.  intuitive — using  or  based  on  what  one  feels  to  be  true  even  without  conscious  reasoning; instinctive 

035.  quick - witted — showing  or  characterized  by  an  ability  to  think  or  respond  quickly  and  effectively 

036.  interrupting — breaking  the  continuity  of  a  conversation  with  one’s  own  statements 

037.  doodling — to  scribble  or  make  rough  drawings,  absentmindedly 

038.  irritable — having  or  showing  a  tendency  to  be  easily  annoyed 

039.  gambling — to  play  games  of  chance  for  money;  betting 

040.  travel - sick — suffering  from  nausea  caused  by  motion  of  a  moving  vehicle or boat 

041.  sensitive — having  or  displaying  a  quick  and  delicate  appreciation  of  others’  feelings 

042.  melancholy — a  feeling  of  pensive  sadness,  typically  with  no  obvious  cause 

043.  chewing  tabacco — the  exercise  of  chewing  tabacco  which  is  not  swallowed 

044.  fidgeting — to  make  small  movements, especially  of  the  hands  and  feet, through  nervousness  or  impatience 

045.  skeptical — not  easily  convinced  ;  having  doubts  or  reservations 

046.  neat - freak — compulsively  obsessed  with  cleanliness 

047.  gossiping — divulging  personal  information  about  others 

048.  prim — feeling  or  showing  disapproval  of  anything  regarded  as  improper; stiffly correct 

049.  abbreviating — giving  others  nicknames  /  shortening  names  /  giving  pet  names

050.  having  a  catchphrase — having  a  sentence  or  phrase  typically  associated  with  a  specific  person

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THE FAIRY: chipped nail polish. glitter highlight. tall trees with smooth bark. tangled hair.the taste of cinnamon sugar. talking too loud and too fast. overgrown flowers in your hair.crumbling buildings reclaimed by nature. flirting. walking home at three am with no coat. platonic hand-holding. blowing smoke out of your nose. dragonfly wings. chaotic good. freckles. fairy rings. secret meetings. gender nonconformity. leather. smudged eyeliner. forbidden fruit.

THE REAPER: computer errors. a shiver down your spine. haunting beauty. hard liquor. crowns of thorns. shadowed alleyways. decaying plant matter. shattered mirrors and broken glass. corrupted memories. stopped clocks. the scent of stale cigarettes.tattered black hoodies. walking your friends home. the crescent moon. the sea. a graveyard on a foggy day. cold rings on cold fingers. absolution. looking out of the window of an airplane. soft kisses.

THE WITCH: graffiti. pretending to know what you’re doing. worn paperback books. growing up too fast. parsley, sage, rosemary, and thyme. lace and combat boots. moth wings. candles on every surface. a weathered deck of cards. turning the music up. fireflies in jars. calloused fingers. drawing on your skin. sunlight filtering through clouds.petrichor. a dying rose in a jar. wearing a crystal pendant. illusions of spells. black cats. mint gum. chapped lips. dirt under your fingernails. the cycle of life and death.

DARKNESS

the mind was made to illuminate the heart.  /  we carve our names on the surface of history.  /  all our strength came out of the woodwork.  /  we only know this light as darkness crashes against it.  /  it’s a cruel trick how we find ourselves when we lose everything else.  /  our mistakes they were bound to be made.  /  the smell of the falling and burning leaves.  /  the bitterness of winter.  /  the sweetness of spring.  /  there was bad blood in us.  /  the whole is greater than the sum of its parts.  /  firewood burning bright in the dead of winter.  /  were we broken right from the start?  /  forgiveness is a lesson he cursed you to learn.  /  just live what little life your broken heart can.  /  just live what little life your mended heart can.  /  darkness exists to make life truly count.

SPACE ONE

space and time takes violent things, angry things, and makes them kind.  /  we are infinite as the universe we hold inside.  /  we may fall in love every time we open up our eyes.  /  i am desperate, if nothing else.  /  no one can unring this bell, unsound this alarm, unbreak my heart new.  /  i am dissonance waiting to be swiftly pulled into tune.  /  somehow i’ve fallen in love with this middle ground at the cost of my soul.  /  all of this mess is just my attempt to know the worth of my life.  /  the night sky once ruled my imagination.  /  let my change of heart occur.  /  fault lines tremble underneath my glass house.  /  there was an avalanche of change.  /  we laid our names to rest along the dotted line.  /  we were amateurs at war, strangers to suffering.  /  another lie from the front lines.  /  our backs against the wall, we’re surrounded and afraid.  /  though time is ruthless, it showed us kindness in the end.  /  a second chance to make amends.  /  losing track of what we’re fighting for.

SPACE TWO

a secret under lock and key.  /  while collecting the stars, i connected the dots.  /  i don’t know who i am, but now i know who i’m not.  /  make my messes matter, make this chaos count.  /  you taught me the courage of stars before you left.  /  how rare and beautiful it is to even exist.  /  a stained glass variation of the truth.  /  stitch by stitch i tore apart.  /  if brokenness is a form of art i muse be a poster child prodigy.  /  an open book with a torn out page.  /  a model citizen of doubt.  /  i’m pinned under the weight of what i believed would keep me safe.  /  show me where my armor ends, show me where my skin begins.  /  the heaviness that i hold in my heart is crushing me.

LAND

a little broken, a little new.  /  the impact and the glue.  /  some truths are sharper than knives.  /  truth’s got its sight set on you.  /  if truth is north, then i am true south.  /  i set out to rule the world with only a paper shield and a wooden sword.  /  i bear little resemblance to the king i once was.  /  i bear little resemblance to the king i could become.  /  half your heart has yet to come home.

LIFE

all we held dear was on the line.  /  my heart reconciled all the darkness and light inside my chest.  /  i saw the future unfold in silver and gold.  /  you are grace, you are light.  /  i can’t keep my head from spinning out of control.  /  is this what being vulnerable feels like?  /  i’m only steady on my knees.  /  i’ll run the risk of being intimate with brokenness.  /  a thousand fingerprints on the surface of who i am.  /  let the scaffolding inside of me be strong enough to hold this tired body up.  /  i was given a gift of hope.  /  

SENSES

fall in love in a single touch, and fall apart when it hurts too much.  /  all i want is to flip a switch before something breaks that cannot be fixed.  /  pain is a well-intentioned weatherman.  /  god, i want to feel again.  /  i am aware of what light tastes like.  /  like fists unravelling, like glass unshattering.  /  i’m well aware of the shadows within my heart.  /  i want to be astonished.  /  nothing less than a work in progress.  /  sacred text on post it notes.  /  the light goes out, my heart goes still.

EMOTIONS 

the calm water in the middle of an anxious sea.  /  the starting line of an adventure.  /  the faint outline of the divine.  /  losing my balance again and again.  /  each brave step forward, i take three steps behind.  /  its mind over matter.  /  a single lose thread and it all comes undone.  /  in our great sorrow, we learn what joy means.  /  with a broken heart, transformation begins.  /  i feel the pressure building until i can’t breathe.  /  reckless but honest words leave my mouth.  /  it’s fight or flight.  /  a last minute man of faith.  /  kerosene on a flame of doubt.  /  it’s too late for holy water now.