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krauser . // ns.fw

he is averagely sized and is certainly a grower not a shower ( lol ). he doesn't have the sort of dick that you're going to look at and be astounded by. but, he's got a lot of stamina & he's fucks hard / fast. the man wont finish until his partner's finished ( though, he is a selfish lover ).

he frequents prostitutes / escorts. when he isn't working ( which is hardly ever ), he uses escorts primarily because he has zero interest in forming social connections & bonds. he isn't good at connecting to people on an emotional level and finds dating impossible. preferring to skip all of that, he just pays for sex. he has developed a bit of a reputation with certain escorts for being that 'weird client'. not in what he enjoys - he's pretty vanilla - but rather because he's this heavily muscular / scarred man who shows up, fucks them senseless, pays and vanishes. they all make stories about what he is and what he does because he hardly speaks outside of transactional sex.

he prefers to be dominant when it comes to sex and generally will never be submissive; it's primarily due to his insecurity regarding his own masculinity / strength. being made to feel submissive by his partners ( even if he enjoys it ) causes too much of a conflict in himself. he'll sulk.

if he does form a connection with someone romantically & emotionally; he will actually be quite romantic when it comes to sex, enjoying foreplay and sweet gestures. he'll put rose petals on the bed and prepare fancy dinners. he could be an amazing partner romantically but he has so many hang-ups, he'd struggle in the long run.

maybe it's because i like peeling back the 'masculinity' or rather, the 'toxic masculinity' of male characters but much like kaz ( & heid but not volgin, lol ) - i just see a man who is sad and defeated and is lashing out.

it's a pride thing.

when a man gets his ego torn slightly and he reacts by lashing out. the trauma and the fear from all of the horrible things throughout the years have turned krauser into a man who is just lashing out and desperate to be seen as 'strong'. he was weakened not only by his arm injury ( so not only physically ) but also mentally by the tragedy of losing his men and experiencing monsters up close.

he was scared. and i think fear for a lot of men who are traditionally raised in that 'men can't cry' environment have this belief that they're not allowed to be scared. they can't be sad or upset or 'weak' and so they react with anger, brutality, sadism. they become 'bullies'.

i don't think krauser is a bully nor do i think he's weak. i just think he's a really tragic character in the sense that he could have been one of the 'good guys' but he essentially let fear win. he let his own shortcomings get the better of him and turn him from a man who genuinely could have done good to a man assisting in the worst evil.