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so i know i never finesing staff but i did sey that "but the horse die anyway" is a short advencher,so i will close it tomarow with some open ending."killer queen" is still on break do to my irl life. so you get a capel open ended storys in the mean time.(also "but the horse die anyway" may continue with s11 and whatever tf budbs and joel wiil do)

Well... tumrblr isn't therapy. I have to learn this somehow once and for all. Not broadcast my vulnerabilities.

I need an outlet. Do I? Or therapy? Already taking anti anxiety meds but I'm not sure if working and may actually be detrimental (I haven't had this much self harm impulse for a while... which isn't saying too much severity wise but still. Also harder to get up and may be making me feel bad even earlier in the day! What if it messes up my ability to feel good in the morning! Things start out good usually then go downhill. I sent theDr. A message. I already stopped one anti anxiety med bc my heart was like 114 bpm when sitting still for a while).

Need something. Idk. Everything is hard. Emotions unstable and i panic easily and spiral easily. Like today. Again. Idk if I have a disorder or what. I feel so helpless and often hopeless. When I think what I want vs what I have the capacity for. when i try to get there and fail miserably at the SMALLEST step. 😞

Is there any solution. I feel like i am different from everyone even mentally ill ppl... I don't fit in with anything, I'm unique but not in a good way

In any case... I can't expect tumrblr to help me. Help as in distraction maybe. But too much temptation to vent. 😞 why.

I see others talk about their issues and they get sympathy, ppl gently attempt to help. I have gotten some of this. But. At this point ppl probably tired of me, everything is the same and I say stupid stuff. I'm toxic. Why are they following? Idk.

I really can't expect anyone to help me. Ppl don't want negativity. I've got to somehow figure out things. I like tumblr and it has seemed more of a home than other places but. Can't let it be a solution. Bc itisn't. Idk what is. .

Maybe I should go off for a little while. Something. I have to have self control to not post stupid personal stuff no one cares about. I don't want to be a spectacle. Don't want to be known for this

Luis walks to a burned building as he's glad that Fazbear curse is over and his sister is safe. Vanny is gone (@fnaftapegirlbunny) or killed by animatronics... Cassidy is gone back to her sister and Elizabeth is helping the Luis with the Afton case.

"Luis..?'' Hailey came to luis with a broken leg and sits on the wheelchair.

''Yeah..'' Luis walks to Hailey to the car to help her sit on the seat in the car. A Man talks to Luis about what to Hailey but luis explain and told him everything. Gregory and Glamrock freddy was adopted by Hailey if Luis can fix freddy's parts.

Nightmare Bear: pages 6-10.

Marlene and James were both busy. By extension, that meant Lily was busy too, and with that Sirius was out of options. He had other friends, people that he loved and that cared about him, but whoever he reached out to right now he felt like he was bothering, and he couldn’t do that to Mary or Remus or anyone else. Marlene and James were the siblings he’d never had, and over the years the same feeling had been extended to Lily. He could bother them without second thought, but he wasn’t willing to put that on anyone else.

So, to distract himself he went out. At home his thoughts would only end up spiraling to a place he knew he didn’t want to go, so instead Sirius surrounded himself with strangers. Even if they weren’t helpful, the atmosphere would keep his mind occupied. Here things were constantly changing, with people flowing in and out and overheard conversations taking what attention he could give away. However, after ordering his second drink, a better distraction walked in.

“Hey, Peter, over here!” Sirius gestured to the open seat next to him.