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WIP WEDNESDAY? never done this. Tagged by @grumpy-limsan-customs-cat!! thank you for still tagging me after all this time!

Old jikhaa stuff that I swore I'd finish but y'know. and dancing jibun, I wanted to finish and colour and maybe offer comms of the sequence haha. I haven't animated in forever but there is another dance on my mind that I want to do first. And the last three are WIPs from my xmas giveaway.

What Colour Character Are You?

Red...

...characters tend to be both quiet and observant as well as loud and dramatic. They are often brash and impulsive, and tend to act on instinct rather than planning ahead. They are quite self-sacrificing, often veering into self-destructive, and they push themselves to their limits trying to succeed. They tend to be stubborn, and it might take a lot to change their mind. They have a hard time expressing their feelings, and may come off as either emotionless, self-absorbed, or perpetually angry.

They don’t have a ton of friends, and when they do, it’s often by circumstance rather than choice (although they grow to fiercely love their friends). They are not usually innately good at fitting into social situations, and can be awkward and out of place in them. They can come off as unhumorous because of how sincere and honest they tend to be, but tend to just have a dryer, sarcastic sense of humor. They do often think of others first, but their motivations for it might not be entirely selfless. They usually have a hard time conceivably lying, and are quite earnest without meaning to be. They put their full effort into what they do, and push themselves to improve at all costs.

They get easily defensive, and feel like they have to prove themselves to earn anyone’s respect. They have a strong sense of internal morality and high standards for themselves. They also hold others to their internal high standards, which can cause a lot of conflict if not worked out. They tend to have bad relationships with their parental figures, who were usually either absent or abusive, and contributed to their toxic view of themselves.

At their core, red characters want to be loved and accepted, but have often been denied it, leading them to build up lots of defenses. Others need to be patient with them and give them a safe space to be themselves as they open up and begin to flourish.

Quiz here.

Tagged by @grumpy-limsan-customs-cat even after all this time 😭

Food meme for Jikhaa!

bold what definitely applies to your muse. - italicize what somewhat applies to your muse.

𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙸𝙰𝙽 »   toothy grins, stories around the campfire, clothes covered in pet hair, hot temper, old jeans, heartbeat in head, potatoes and steak, beaded jewelry, bruise like galaxies, mementos, backpack stuffed full, craigslist furniture, spontaneous road trips, air ripped from lungs.

𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙳 »   homemade bread, white lies, easily excited, trying on hats, band geek, pep talks, no impulse control, sunsets, vintage fashion, long showers, selfies, following dreams, rosy cheeks, song mash-ups, pink lemonade with tequila, loves easily, animated storyteller, full of comebacks.

𝙲𝙻𝙴𝚁𝙸𝙲 »   list of wishes, biting their tongue, band-aids and neosporin, shoulder to cry on, morning sun, necklaces, trial and error, homemade quilts, formal clothing, astrology fan, messages in bottles, pleated braids, speaking up for friends, feathers, motivational quotes, vivid dreams.

𝙳𝚁𝚄𝙸𝙳 »   bird watching, shy kid, wind chimes, trying to whistle, summer camp, apple orchards, lost in their head, glow-in-the-dark stars on the ceiling, hoodies, thrift shopping, saving worms off the sidewalk, pig latin, bare feet, thunderstorms, numb fingers, braided hair, naming potted plants.

𝙵𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃𝙴𝚁 »   goosebumps, leather jackets, adventure, chewing nails, cares deeply but can’t show it, bronze locks, no sleep, taste of iron, netflix binges, never forgets, combat boots, stories behind scars, table for one, official soundtracks, sore calves, trusts themselves the most.

𝙼𝙾𝙽𝙺 »   always trying to be better, wanderlust, meditation, sweatpants, old photographs, yoga, sleeping in hammocks, nostalgia, minimalist design, breath of fresh air, baby animals, volunteering, perfectionist, doesn’t care about fashion, healthy snacks, noticing the little things.

𝙿𝙰𝙻𝙰𝙳𝙸𝙽 »   school uniforms, thick jackets, sleeping with the windows open, logical advice, scrap booking, compasses, I fight for my friends, sculpture gardens, cold morning air, big soul, likes routine, secret romantic, last to get jokes, sunflowers, practical presents, misty weather.

𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁 »   herbal tea, smell of rain, blinking away tears, camping trips, collecting bones, swiss army knives, first impressions, anxious thoughts, bobby pins, burnt marshmallows, too competitive, clothes lines, messenger bags, holding grudges, gets along better with animals than people.

𝚁𝙾𝙶𝚄𝙴 »   flirtatious sarcasm, candid photos, lost phone chargers, adrenaline rush, picking dirt out from beneath their nails, social chameleon, clashing clothes, self-deprecating jokes, claw machines, sits in chairs wrong, smudged eyeliner, has too many sunglasses, eats nothing or everything.

𝚂𝙾𝚁𝙲𝙴𝚁𝙴𝚁 »   infectious laugh, family trees, shivers down their spine, lipstick and roses, mood swings, clumsy, believing in destiny, high expectations, sleeping in darkness, collection of nail polish, passionate, good grades but never studies, poetry books, blowing kisses, not knowing their own strength.

𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙻𝙾𝙲𝙺 »   knowing everyone’s secrets, backpack covered in pins, envy, being in walmart late at night, earl grey, selective memory, conspiracy theories and cryptids, keysmashing, need to know basis, can’t cook, bags under eyes, experimental art, flickering bulbs, black clothing all year long.

𝚆𝙸𝚉𝙰𝚁𝙳 »   piles of books, cat in lap, keeping a diary, indecision, scented candles, studying alone in a café, lingering touches, museum dates, unanswered questions, taking on too much responsibility, collections, chalk dust, comfy robes, unnecessary apologies, coming home after a long day.

Tagged by @niomemizune​ in 2020;; thank you!!

Frankenstein’s Monster

this plight is the simplest of them all: you did not ask for this.

you were never given a choice. no part of yourself feels human, just a collection of traits you've picked up from mirroring anyone you could, even the people you meet through a television screen. it's alienating to live that way- yet someone has called you the alienating one. maybe too many people to count. maybe they treated you so uncomfortably inhuman that it's all you can understand now, or you've dug yourself into such a deep hole in an attempt to keep safe that you can't remember a person living in the home of your body at all. being alive is confusing and painful and lonely and loud but living is all there is to being human- you're already there.

just take air into your lungs and breathe.

close your eyes and picture a beautiful sky.

you made that. you painted that yourself.

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Tagged by @grumpy-limsan-customs-cat ​ thank you, even after all this time ;w;

Last Song: I just revisited Blue Stahli after reading up on what happened with Bret (and FIXT/Klayton?) and found Invocation Array (from The Luna Sequence) through that mess. I’m listening to them for the first time now.

Last Movie: I watch very few movies but the last one was Princess Mononoke. In terms of new (for me) movies, I think that was Promare and one of the old live action Mulan ones. And some other historical Chinese movies.

Currently Reading: I’m not reading anything now really. I do have on loan a book of poetry by W.B. Yeats as well as one on Chinese symbolism and I SHOULD read them and return them to the library. Does BNHA count? I binge-read the whole thing and am now just reading it as the chapters release.

Currently Watching: I generally don’t watch... uh, anything. I do want to see the new season of Altered Carbon but that might account to never will.

Currently Playing: FFXIV. :sweat: I am kinda on pause in the middle of FFVIIR and I have a tonne of games I just stopped midway through. I’m on ACNH fairly regularly for maybe an hour-ish daily.

Craving: Chips tbh. Fresh fruit sponge cake. SOMEONE ELSE’S COOKING... and also someone else in general. Change (but at the same time I’m scared of enacting it).

Tagged by: @veils-and-hearts thank you!

the innocent

you're the definition of an idealist and a dreamer. you're very romantic, and look for the best in people. you trust easily (some would say too easily) and it might be your downfall. tbh, you have a solid chance of dying to give the hero motivation to finish their quest. but hey! it's okay! you have a lot of empathy and concern for others (you're probably the mom/therapist of your friend group) and a pure heart.

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At first I was incredulous of Jikhaa being “innocent” but I think, all in all, that is the part he plays in his story--though not in his own narrative.

Tagged by @elegant-etienne ​ thank you!