#||mun's reflections||

That said, I saw a gifset of her piercing Inuyasha with her arrow and sealing him to the sacred tree of ages and got me thinking. Not only did this bleeding, pain riddled and half dying woman drag herself back to the village...but she had to lift her bow against the one person who understood her. The one person who saw her for who she was, related to her loneliness, made her feel human, brought to life her hopes and dreams and unquestionably,  was her love and husband to be . She had to  fire an arrow at this person that she wished to share her life with, who brought peace and semblance to her weary heart.

And while she had the opportunity to kill him, she chose to seal him instead. Even with thinking he had betrayed her, used her to get the jewel and that the time they shared were just a lie..she still could not bring herself to cut down the man she loved more than life itself. So she did the next best thing to get the jewel and save the village..which still would not have been an easy feat. 

It still broke her heart to have done so. Perhaps if she had not been on the verge of death, it would not have ended in such a violent and tragic manner but it did. 

In the end, Kikyou did right by the village and the world at large..but at the cost of her own heart, wishes and dreams. She truly lived up to her reputation as a very formidable and powerful priestess in more than one way.

And I cannot help but reflect again, how strong she had to be all her life and even in her last moments towards her first death, she had to be again. To die knowing you were used, betrayed and made to believe that everything was a lie..is utterly and miserably painful. I cannot imagine it. 

All her actions speaks volumes on her character. She is sorely under appreciated for just how strong she had to be. How complex, fascinating and amazing her character is. Kikyou has an inhuman level of power, determination and resolve that puts her far above the average human. She does have human foibles but for the most part, ignores or overcomes it to get the work done.

Kikyou is not a saint but given all that she had to do, all she had to suffer through..all that she has done..she might as well be. No one is more deserving of happiness than her and ;-; all she got was repeated slaps of misfortunate.