Sam is prone to âsoftnessâ
You could say that Sam is a rough and brash person. Just like how you could also say that Sam hates vampires.
She doesnât back down from confrontations out of fear, only out of practicality (when she hasnât been angered.) Sheâll argue with someone very easily. Sheâs also gotten into fist fights with people. Sam ends up saying junk and will bristle back instead of letting small aggressive acts slide past.
At the end of the day though, she doesnât enjoy any of that. She doesnât enjoy fighting vampires. She doesnât like arguing with someone or pushing roughly at something or someone. Yeah, sheâll get satisfaction from âwinningâ sometimes, but ultimately itâs her just acting on her anger instead of holding back.
By the current point, in practically all verses, sheâs gotten into plenty of fights of some kind or another.Â
My point though, is that, sheâs prone to âsoftness.â I realize thatâs pretty vague, but thatâs the best word I can use to sum it all up.
Sheâll become defensive and protective over âsoftâ people which she aligns with the same as being innocent. Her heart just automatically feels for them when they get hurt or feel bad.
The other thing is when people are soft TO HER.
Soft-spoken words, gently speaking about sensitive matters - Even politeness works. Then thereâs soft touches of course. It affects her when itâs not done out of pity (although even then it will still do so to a degree). Itâs hard to describe how it affects her, but it makes HER much more soft to them.
Ultimately, I think itâs that she feels cared for. Like someone is not doing this out of necessity that she NEEDS a gentle touch, but because they care about her feelings rather than just her stability. (Think how you feel when you get an unexpected present âjust causeâ - like someone GENUINELY WANTS to be nice to you because they care about you.)
Although, you could say part of it is that it makes her feel grateful. Because she doesnât really deserve such kind treatment. (Which although sheâs really self-confident, that doesnât change the fact that Sam views herself as someone âtaintedâ/adult/grim. Thatâs a whole other post though.)
It just warms her heart right up. âSoftnessâ is such a pure thing to her, regardless if she realizes that herself or not. It makes her happy and content. Like the world has good, despite everything else. No matter what else sheâs seen or done, sheâll feel the world has good and nothing can erase that.
One of Samâs things, at the heart of her, is that she has infinite hope in the world. Itâs why sheâs just as infinitely determined.Â
Endless hope that there IS good in the world, and that no matter what itâs there. The world isnât all bad and no matter how bad everything gets, thereâll still be good. It doesnât matter how small or short it is. One second of it is worth all her life and is more than if the rest of the world was bad.
This hope is why sheâs just as endlessly determined. She can make it better. She can keep some of this good safe, keep it from getting destroyed by tragedy. It might not seem much, but when even the shortest second of good is worth more than an entire world of bad... well keeping someone alive long enough to have one of those seconds is worth all her effort.