#;royalgarden

@rkbyunbaek

tw: diet

hungry? more like starving. eunae is pretty sure anyone in a hundred mile radius can hear her stomach growl. having to watch every single calorie you ingest can become alienating very fast, especially for someone who exercises as much as she does. she’s always been athletic, even studied physical education once upon a time (when she still had a life). she knows her body needs a lot more than what she’s allowed to eat to function properly and give her enough energy to go through the day. unsurprisingly, she’s been feeling much more tired lately, more apathetic too. the little energy she has, she spends it all on training and keeps none for social interactions.

she needs a lot of self control not to just fill up her tray with two portions of each side and main dish. in the end, the trainee leaves the counter with about half the quantity of food she would normally eat. she’s disappointed, but there are more important things to worry about, mainly  the recording of the remaining songs on their mini album. she brought her earphones, planning on sitting away from the crowd and listen to the demos on a loop. that is very unlike her, but she needs the alone time today.

@rklisa

it’s exhausting, and much more physically and mentally painful than she ever could’ve imagined. but she’s never been part of anything more thrilling in her life. now they’re working in the shadows, hidden from the outside world and she can’t remember the last time she saw sunlight. but sooner than they expect, their group will finally be revealed to the public. they will go out, meet people, perform in from of them, give interviews, interact with fans (hopefully, if they get any). things will be twice as hectic as they are now because practicing will still be required, on top of everything else they have to do, but they will see the fruit of their labor in the flesh. it won’t just be speculations and staff telling them what to expect. they’ll be living it, breathing it.

@rkdawon

it’s about two or three in the morning and eunae has been tossing and turning the whole time, unable to find enough peace of mind to fall asleep. she’s not really thinking of anything specific, she’s just too agitated to calm down. the training has intensified and whenever she lies down, she feels like she should be up and about instead, doing something useful. it’s an annoying feeling, really, because she’d love to get some well-needed rest. “dawon?” she calls, very quietly to make sure not to needlessly wake her up if her roommate was luckier than her.

LUXE 💎 SECOND EVALUATION performing debut song ‘ I FEEL GOOD ’ february 28th, 2018

it's the first time they will perform in front of anyone as luxe and just thinking about it is enough to send eunae's energy through the roof. she's already hyper in general but today, while they're getting ready to begin the song, she's never felt so alive before. it's such an exhilarating feeling to stand in front of the panel, with her group members, to show them what they've been practicing. she knows they're ready, she knows they're capable of doing this. there will be a lot of things to improve on, a lot of criticism after they're done, she's sure of it. but it's all for the best, to prepare them for the harshness of the industry, so they debut at their very best. she just hopes all of the girls will give it their all, but there's very little doubt in her mind as she glances at each of them: jihyun, dawon, seolhyun, jiwon, seoyoung. they're all radiant, at their right spot and waiting for the song to start.

being in the center at the very beginning would be intimidating for some, but after repeating the choreography over and over again, eunae feels like she's confident enough to tackle it. they all get their spotlight at some point during the song, which she absolutely loves because they all have such unique colors and personalities that not letting it show would be disappointing. she's grateful to no end for the importance they gave her in the debut song. since she's not good at singing, she didn't expect to be given so many lines, but the rapping is not only decent in i feel good but very present. it's exciting, but also a burden since she doesn't feel like her skills are at their best just yet. she's been taking workshops to try and improve her pronunciation and technique and now is the time to actually prove it to so jisub. he called her an amateur once and she sure as hell never wants to hear that word throw in her direction ever again.

dawon opens the song with her powerful voice and soon enough it's eunae's turn.

Hey everybody Hey everybody Hey everybody

Hey say need more basses May day stop and game set Baby I feel good yo Play as if you’re crazy and scream louder Beat it Get it I’m so High it’s just us I I I I Feel

@seolhyunrk

it’s as exciting as eunae expected it to be. while recording the song was a wonderful experience, she’s happy to finally see it take form with the choreography, because while this song is an entity by itself, she thinks it becomes even better when you can also see it with your eyes. it’s one of her strengths too, in this group. she’s the main rapper but also the lead dancer, which means that royal recognized her skill. while it’s flattering, it also puts pressure on her to perform at the best of her abilities and help her members as much as she can. seolhyun and her need to work as a duo on this one, each one playing on their strengths to be able to elevate the group when it comes to dancing. the vocalists have their parts more than covered; eunae can’t even criticize anyone because all of them are almost twice as good as her when it comes to technique. she’s worked a lot on her stability though and she’s slowly getting there, but she will never be a great singer.

@rkdawon

it feels like they’ve come full circle as both dawon and eunae stand in front of royal’s building, hand in hand and about to make their first official entry. it all started in september, when they entered the royal survival’s dorm and happened to share a room together. now, months later, they are future luxe members and royal trainees, switching companies to prepare for debut. as surreal as it sounds, the taller girl is glad to be able to share this important moment with dawon. they became good friends during the show, sharing their doubts, pains and joys every night before sleep, as well as a few hidden chocopies in eunae’s luggage.

@rkjiwon

it’s been an awfully long day and it’s past midnight when eunae gets out of the shower. to be fair, she did spend more time than she usually did, enjoying the warmth of the water on her skin. it’s so freezing outside these days, she’s so tired of winter and misses california really bad. washing up helps, though, and she gets out feeling happier and more relaxed, brushing her teeth and doing a short skincare routine before she goes back to her shared bedroom with dawon to get changed. she should probably pick up more tips from the girls on how to take better care of her skin, as it’s not something she used to pay much attention to in the past. she was blessed with good skin, luckily for her, except blemishes and dryness happen sometimes. she wouldn’t want to be criticized for it if it’s something she can easily avoid.

LUXE 💎 FIRST EVALUATION recording debut song ‘ I FEEL GOOD ’ january 27th, 2018

it’s definitely not an easy day. it’s stressful, long and tiring. they’ve been told they would spend at least half of the day in the studio, prepping for the recording and then doing the recording itself. it’s the first time they’ve done this, or at least in such a formal, determinant way. it’s not for fun anymore, it’s not just a hobby. their future as a group is contained in this small, suffocating room that the six of them along with staff members share. but eunae finds it just as exciting as it is hard. she has no experience whatsoever, but watches with fascination and works hard with her group members in order to make it a successful first time. she doesn’t want to let anyone down, of course.

the parts she were given are exactly in her element. the song is upbeat, and definitely more girl crush than it is the sexier concept she’s dreading to have to do later on. she likes it a lot, actually, and finds herself humming it even at the most random times. after practicing it so much, she’s still not tired of hearing it and that’s a good sign. though, she thinks that maybe part of it is thanks to her excitement. this song is their baby, after all. it will be their first contact with the industry as debuted idols. they might as well cherish it the best they can, since these moments fly by so fast.

after a few hours of preparations, they’re finally ready to begin and eunae patiently (not) waits for her turn, mouthing her lines over and over again to try and keep her mind focused on the task ahead. it’s incredibly hard for her not to let her thoughts wonder anywhere and everywhere, since she gets so easily distracted by her surroundings. but it’s something she’s been trying to work on, both by herself and with the help of the royal coaches. jo soonyang did praise her progress, but said not to stop progressing because there’s still a long road ahead. eunae agrees, but it doesn’t make it any easier.