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Good morning... I'm sorry I'm sleeping while you are waking up. 

dont play music for me until i fall asleep, and dont ignore the time difference to stay up with me and don't race up your 4 story house to your phone charger because our call made you forget you were on 1% and don't wake me up by softly saying my name and agreeing that it was totally okay for me to fall asleep and that you think i should get some sleep.

don't do any of that.

because now i'm confused and feeling a thing that you arent and i wanna know how your day is and what your favorite color is and how many hours of sleep you get on a normal night and what's your favorite fruit and do you like wavy chips or original.

and are you okay because you haven't answered me in a while and im millions of miles away and i'm scared i've bored you.

and dont you dare tell me about the shows you think i'd like or the music you want to share with me or any of that because i will do it and smile like a little fuck who doesn't know what they are doing and dont ask to game with me because i'll just get scared and train so hard before ever giving you my steam because i want to be half as good as you are. 

dont make me feel things because you're really far away and i just wanna hug you but all i've got are these body pillows in the crack between the cushions of the couch where you told me i was gorgeous and i felt so many things because i dont get told that. ever.

and im writing this because you don't even know what you're doing or how it makes me feel really happy and i just hope you had a good day yesterday. it's still today for me but you're a couple hours ahead. 

i'm going to go to sleep and hope you wake up refreshed this morning.