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- - - awake, his mind running, he woke up in another part of his flat again. sweat covered his skin, eyes darting around to see where he was. in the bathroom.

the white walls, the cold hard floor, it all seemed suffocating. he couldn’t find the escape, the door handle.a way out of his thoughts, he needed to run, which he wasn’t able to. all he remembers was this one moment, this one moment of waking up after doing a bad thing, after letting the demons that overcame him in his peaceful state.

- - - - - soon he wore a new fresh set of clothes, layering up even in this summer heat. he didn’t felt like being under people, yet he was still on the busy streets, searching for any kind of abstraction that followed with lust, messed up people. messed up minds, anyone he could empty himself out on, anyone he could use his anger on.

the walk, the attemnpted escape ended up in his own car, deciding to sleep there for more, scared he might end up walking again, he locked himself in.

the curse still lies in his mind, the curse he gained, the curse he deserved.

"I-It can't be..." Chachi clutched her head, having a migrane. First, her prince leaves her, then her brother -- who she thought left her for good -- suddenly returns. It was too much for her. Everything became dizzy for her. The lights spun, her ears were filled with so many voices. The negativity was getting the best of her.

Her brother. Her Gege. He left her so unexpectedly. That added up to her list of why she thought she should leave. Now he suddenly returns. She hit him with all her might, angry and disappointed. "Why did you leave, Ge? You could've told me what was wrong.." His figure stayed still, but luckily he caught her just as she was about to hit he ground.

Her relationship. She didn't know where it stood anymore. It was early to say, but she thought of him to be the love of her life. Her knight in shining armor, her Jack Dawson, her prince. Yet at the same time, she knew it wouldn't last. She knew that she would screw up everything. Losing the best boyfriend she's ever had. "I'm so sorry... I'm so sorry for hurting you. I've apologized so many times, I know. But I just want you to know how sorry I am. You obviously deserve better than me. Especially after what I did. And I also want you to know this.. That'll love you until I die. My first love." She remembers what he always told her. "I'll love you... Now and forever. Always."

She remembers that night. The shot. Her side gave an aching pulse just by the thought of it and she held back her scream of pain. Her heart was what mattered at the moment. She heard of people actually dying from heartbreak. Maybe that's how she'll end. How her life will come to a close.

She has screamed out her frustration tons of times, but that never helped. She wanted to talk to someone. Anyone. But she didn't want to feel like a burden when she was already broken.

She wanted to run away, to leave, to die. She wanted to disappear off the face of the earth. Anything to get her away from her worst nightmare. Maybe even leave this place and start anew. She didn't know. But reality kept her feet glued to the ground, paralyzed. She no longer knew what to do. What she did instead: Her whole body failed on her and she collapsed.