@rkgunhee

as he’s pulling on his trusty blue blazer, jaebum steps in front of his full body mirror and straightens his clothes. he sighs and sweeps back his hair with his hands. he’s nervous but he reminds himself it’s just dinner with his parents and chuseok has never really been a big deal to him because his parents never truly celebrated it. 

... but it’s more than that. 

he knows the dinner will fall silent as he’s asked the usual questions like how school is going or if there’s a girl in his life. again, he reminds himself that his parents will love him unconditionally, respect his wishes and aspirations but regardless he’s uncomfortable with dictating these things as though speaking them will only solidify his worries and force them to become more alive. 

this is why he’s pulling along gunhee, whom he hopes will help divert his parent’s questions or at least he’ll be more confident to avoid them in gunhee’s presence. maybe he’ll blame his inability to answer as a polite gesture to gunhee -- as not to make the dinner conversations boring for him; assuring them with his usual “later”. 

he knows exactly what he’s doing; suppressing unsaid things farther between himself and his parents but he doesn’t care. he’ll deny them until he dies from exhaustion -- it’s the only way he knows how to function. he wonders if his parents can see right through him or worse, if gunhee can. he suddenly can’t handle the thought or pressure of thinking that people are already worrying about him. 

he spends the night trying to convince jaebum to let him pay for dinner - after all, it’s thanks to him the track was looked on favourably.  without jaebum and his studio, gunhee wouldn’t have had a track at all.  but it seems that his best friend won’t listen and he can’t help but sigh - at least there’s something he can give him if not to pay for the dinner that jb deserves.  he ruffles in his bag for a moment and pulls out a slightly crinkled flyer for sphere - taking the care to iron out the creases and hand it over to jaebum with a small smile.  it’s like proof that he made it, that this is real - he doesn’t say that he wishes jaebum was with him.  he thinks with the flyer in his best friend’s hands that the sentiment is there.

jaebum is so elated when he gets a text from gunhee that he can barely contain himself but it’s when he’s face to face with his best friend that he’s feeling overly sentimental. he’s been gunhee’s friend for so long that he knows how hard it was for gunhee to get himself out of bed and decide to go to his audition. he can’t help but feel overly prideful that his best friend is now a trainee.

when gunhee hands jaebum the flyer, he doesn’t really know what to do. he’s not totally crying but he looks at gunhee from across the table with tears threatening to spill down his cheek. he stifles them and forces himself to keep his composure.

@rkgunhee

jaebum’s always loved the idea of tattoos, a permanent reminder of the things in his life that were significant. he loved how they had the potential make him feel grounded -- that a simple look at something inked into his skin could remind him of bigger ideas and a larger purpose. 

however, it was deciding what he would get tattooed onto his body, that was the problem -- not to mention where because he couldn’t stand the possibility of something coming out how he hadn’t imagined. he’d had tons of piercings but they were different, he could take those out. tattoos had the potential to always be a regret, which was something he had to keep in mind. 

@rkgunhee

jaebum didn’t really know why he’d taken this workshop, probably because it was smart to take it, but he didn’t ever use any form of sns. it was practical which jaebum would consider his main reason but there was also another; gunhee. 

jaebum wasn’t lying when he said he had barely any friends, gunhee was probably it or at least someone who jaebum could never imagine ever being uncomfortable around. it helped that they’d known each other forever but he also just couldn’t imagine being as close to another person like how he was with gunhee. 

so immediately walking into the room where the workshop was taking place, he located gunhee and stuck to his side.