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Yall I have been freaking out all day I have a squish or crush or whatever idk at this point on my friend and I'm fucking dying

I like her a lot, she's funny and an amazing artist. she was one of my first friends freshman year when I didn't know anyone, and we have a lot in common. I know she thinks of me as a friend which is great I want that, but do I actually want to be in a relationship? I can't fucking tell and I don't want to make her uncomfortable

I don't even know what I'm feeling I think maybe sensual attraction cause it's definitely not romantic, my gage for aesthetic is lilly and this definitely isn't that, my gage for sexual is garrett and this also isn't that. I've been waiting for this to fade cause I kinda felt like this toward a different friend but it didn't last long and also wasn't as strong and didn't stress me out half as much as this

I just want her to kiss me I think but kissing is also gross at the same time :(

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO HARD TO FIGURE THE FUCK OUT?????!!