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Kwon Jiyong @gdrxxxn 1 h

I'm convinced that at one point everyone encounters a situation they want to run away from, a situation where you wish you'd be in the body of someone else, merely being someone watching this situation but not being involved as such. It might just be something simple, others would even dare to laugh at you because of that, but that's not really important in situations like this. Some people are just stronger than others, some people are capable to endure a lot of pain or simply being able to stay strong in every situation, but once again, everyone is different. I've never once thought I'd encounter such a situation, such a feeling of the need to run away, not according to all the things I went through. I thought I could pretty much deal with everything by now, but apparently I can't and I can't even run away and believe me, if I could I definitely would. If I could I'd already be far away from here, probably going back to my old life or traveling around til I find something else to do, just not to face things anymore. 

But every time we encounter something like that, we learn something out of it, don't we? And I for sure learned not to grow attached to some people and trusting them. I won't ever in my life tell anyone anything about my past anymore. No, actually, I'm not going to let anyone get this close to get interested in my whole being. The only thing they should know is that I am an asshole and that no matter what they do I won't even dare to give a damn about anything. And while knowing that, I want them to stay far away from me. Eventually I should spread the rumor that I already killed someone because they were bothering me, maybe this will help out in this situation. But well, that'd probably be the last thing I could do if nothing works and I'm already an asshole at most parts, so why shouldn't I just become an even bigger one and finally be alone, like I actually want to be? It might be hard tho, humans crave for attention and love, it's something natural, that'll be definitely my biggest enemy. 

I'm out of here.