welcome to freak nation

love my best friend so much.........like legitimately the only person in the world i feel like i could be around forever without getting socially tired. i think she probably understands me better than anyone else

escaped the hangout by saying "im tired and i feel like doing my own thing for a while" and it WORKED

tma is so hard to keep track of becuase every so often Jonathan sims is just like "ohhh interesting this evil man is totally the guy from case file 8008569" as if i fucking remember their names and which episode that is from the case number? so ive been going through every noteworthy character thats appeared so far, the episodes they appear in, and writing extensive notes about them and ive been at it for like 2 hours lol

oh also i couldnt sleep last night so i stayed up til 3am yapping to myself and also crying a bit

im so lucky ive never paid attention to a single piece of tma fanart before i started listening. could you imagine how much i could be spoiled for if i had cared enough to retain that information. of course now i care so i cant look at fanart which sucks cause i really wanna look at my guy.......... sadge

i unfortunately have absolutely 0 media literacy when it comes to movies so like. i can obviously get a vibe on what theyre trying to say and i really enjoyed it. but there are many many times where i watch a movie and immediately afterwards have to google "(movie) explained"

backrooms is, as they say, "fucking bonkers"

my brother made me and our mom listen to the rirst episode of tma on tuesday and i finished season 1 (40 episodes) today lol

my sleep schedule is actively getting worse loll

whoops its 2am