17• Living my dream life• My Manifestation diary💌

New: link to @4dbarbie c.ai

This took me hours, so I cannot imagine how long it should have taken her to write such detailed answers when only to catalogue them took forever. I did it mostly for myself so I could always come back to the response I needed and not search through 200+ posts. But I figured since I spent so long on it I might as well share. There's nothing, truly, that she hasn't given an answer for. I phrased the links as questions so that they could be easily accessible.

First, LEGEND TO UNDERSTAND TERMS.

Who am I?

What is ego?

What's it like, being your Self?

How do I stop identifying with something?

How do you become aware of something, do you accept it's yours?

Then how do I get something random (eg. a cold) if I wasn’t even aware of it before it came?

What is the 3D? How do I change it?

Does that mean I have everything I want in the 3D right now?

Why haven't my desires manifested yet?

How do you drop a belief?

Would dropping a belief be the same as accepting a belief? Is the process the same?

How can I change my appearance?

How can I stop being conscious of my old face?

What do I do when I have doubts?

If I know I am Awareness, why do I still lack things?

Why don't my affirmations work?

How to deal with situations which traumatized me? (TW: SA)

I want to change something in my life, how do I go about that?

How to make my life perfect?

Do past and future exist? Why not?

How can you explain there being no past and no future?

How to spawn things/make my results instant?

What happens to me when the body dies?

Is there ever any delay?

How to get rid of my conviction of being the body?

I've been living in my 4D forever and still no results in the 3D, what am I doing wrong?

How to have everything I want?

Do I need to meditate to discover my Self?

Should I condition my mind that I am God?

What do I do if I feel I am only halfway?

How do you practice erasing problems from the mind?

Why do I struggle with manifesting instantly?

Why am I still not getting my desires if I understand nondualism?

How to fix the separation between "me" and the world?

I can't control my thoughts, what should I do?

How do I cease to be what I feel I am?

I can't suppress my desires, help?

Do spirit guides/ghosts/deities exist?

My circumstances are so saddening and exhausting, how does one realize themselves in that?

Stop allowing yourself to be what you are not

I am attached to my character and her family, how do I get over this?

I'm sad letting go of my character, what happens to her?

If I am infinite consciousness, how can I be conscious of being a new person or having a new story?

I'm confused, shouldn't 3D be instantaneous if I have my desire in my 4D?

How do I get out of the cycle of trying to change my life?

I'm imagining myself as a person who is manifesting instead of a person who has, why can't I stop?

I have so many obligations, all I want is peace of mind. How can I be free from them?

I'm afraid of losing my mind if I believe in this

What's the simplest advice you can give me?

How do I treat the "real" world as a dream?

I only know myself as a conditioned being, how can I be the opposite?

What is realisation, after all?

How do I practice nondualism?

How can I stop experiencing desire and fear?

What prevents me from knowing my Self, here and now?

Why shouldn't I desire? I deserve the best so I should have the best

How to know my Self?

How to change the body?

How do I go back to just being "I AM"?

Can you do a guide for how to awaken ourselves and change our lives?

One concept that I don't understand is how are we as consciousness, everything?

Why am I still confused? I'm hopeless atp

What if I'm a certified non-believer?

Why hasn't my 4D come to fruition?

Is it all about having a new identity?

Can I change facts by changing my attitude?

How to be done with trying once and for all?

I feel hopeless about my circumstances, when will it end?

I overconsumed and I don't know what to do anymore, help?

4D Self/3D Self, do I exist as two people?

I know my Self but I still try to get things, so what does that mean?

I want my desires, to realize my true Self I feel like I should be in the right mental space first

No matter what, I can't make myself believe I'm my ideal person

How can I possibly realize myself as a depersonalized, universalized awareness of nothing in particular?

Why can't I get what I want by manifesting?

One thing that really bothers me is: do I have to endure the world while I know my self as awareness and disbelieve that I am Vanessa?

Why can't I change the world?

How do I get in the void?

Should I keep striving for the void?

What if I'm just not fit to know my Self?

How do I reach my higher Self?

I have a health condition that needs attending quickly

How long does it take to reach self-realization?

How to gain control over the world?

What do I tell my human Self when she asks for her desires?

What exists and what doesn't? What is real and what is false?

What am I, in comparison to the universe?

GOOGLE DRIVE

For those who are sad she left, so am I. I miss her too, but I also realize why she left. There was nothing more to say, she's said it all, we just need to listen, trust, and live in accordance with what we've found. Wish you all the best on your journey.

sp and i broke up in 2022. i did a+p and got movement but i switched to states and havent gotten anything since rlly. he got with 3p in nov. i stopped caring and stuff and even ASSUMED they broke up. so my question is, why didn’t they? they posted together and looked happy but i truly believed they broke up. i dont even care that much about him anymore and i dont even practice manifesting him that much anymore because ive had no luck. but why didnt this reflect?

hi!

you don’t get rid of a problem by saying “the problem is not there”.

you’re holding it in mind, you by saying “they broke up” are holding the relationship in mind. this is why most of the times when you try to get rid of a “problem” like a 3p in this way it doesn’t work.

there is no problem in the first place, you have to realize the 3p or whatever other problem you may encounter is there solely because your ego created it with its fears and is desperately holding on to it by trying to get rid of it.

there is nothing to get rid of. if your goal is a relationship with said sp, simply BE with them. there is no one in your way except yourself.

Something I noticed occurs naturally to me during the day, is thinking about something sad/embarrassing from my past and then going "I'm so glad I'm not the type to do that anymore", same goes with seeing people struggle with things, "I'm so glad I'm not the type to worry over that now". And tonight, while in the shower, it came to me that this could be a really great explanation for how to live in the end. Basically, all those thoughts are thoughts I don't will to happen, you know those thoughts that appear like they think themselves. I subconsciously dismiss being anything like that past version of me, and I'm happy in the knowledge that I moved past it - all of it happening automatically.

So if you have thoughts like "I need to say my affirmations", "I need to check my state", you're not living in the end but still desiring. When you're able to look at the thing you desire as being something that was once a dream, but now only a memory - you've entered the state of the wish fulfilled.

When desire turns into identity, you know you've succeeded in fulfilling yourself. So start telling yourself you're not the type to!, and only go forward in the knowledge you've changed.

[ ] you are staying true to the real you, imagination, and accepting only who you are being in imagination as true

[ ] when the 3d shows you otherwise, you dont care because you know you have already manifested it

[ ] you arent checking for movement or worrying about time or if youve done enough techniques (why would you check for movement if its already done?)

[ ] you realize you are the only operant power that controls every aspect of the 3d dream

[ ] you realize that by law, whoever you are being in imagination + what ever you accept as true in imagination, will always reflect into the 3d

[ ] you realize you arent waiting for anything to reflect because you are already living in your dream life in the real reality, imagination

[ ] you realize that you dont have to do anything in the 3d to manifest; you know you can continue living the same human life but while staying true to having your desire in imagination

[ ] you realize the human five senses are limited and cannot see everything in the 3d (cant see sp’s thoughts; cant see fat cells burning), unlike in the limitless imagination

[ ] you continue to return to the state wish fulfilled, you make it your dominant state by continuing to persist in it and make it natural to you

[ ] you do techniques for fun because its fun knowing you control everything and can give yourself everything in the real reality *opinional

[ ] you know manifesting something is as simple as deciding you have it and sticking to that assumption

in life, i want you to truly understand that you are now free. there’s no pain. there is no suffering. there is no more having to settle with “that’s life”. there is no more desiring, the word itself implies separation. there is no more. just be.

you are everything. consciousness. everything you see around you are forms of consciousness. everything around you, IS you, just in a simplified form your brain can process. this is why forms of consciousness are not real. theres no real separation in your reality.

your dreams, your illusions, your “4d”, your imagination, your “physical world”, are all fake. these are just forms of consciousness brought on by your awareness. your dreams are just as real (or fake) as your physical world. you refusing to see this is the only problem.

that is what you are. that is all there is. THIS WILL SET YOU FREE. everything you could possibly think of in life already exist. everything you couldnt even imagine being “real” is already real. this isnt just hypothetically spiritual talk used to make it sound mysterious. ITS YOU!

if you know you observe consciousness (you) through your awareness(also you) and things can only exist because of your observations then truly, what is missing, exactly? what is there to do except be? why waste your time playing with forms of consciousness when you can just be?

you really dont have to do anything because given the fact that you are already everything its kind of redundant to try, no? i mean u CAN but know that while doing it, ur still free. theres no “maintaining” your desires when you are already every single existing version of said desire

i will never tell you to do anything but let yourself be. you dont need to affirm, you dont need to read anything (yes, including my post!), you don’t need to work on your “self concept” and you dont need to do a damn thing but be.

© itgomyway

The art of conscious manifesting is to simply recognize yourself as the only reality there is and when you shift your perception of your true identity then you are able to warp the "external world" of your reality according to your commands with ease.

Your true identity is consciousness and consciousness is the one reality there is.

Reality is whatever you want it to be and anything is absolutely possible for you as the creator.

You can warp, shape, and alter your experiences in your reality in whatever way you desire because reality is actually you. You are reality.

There is only one reality (you) and when you manifest a desire, you are ultimately warping and shaping the experiences of your reality for you to experience your desired manifestation.

It is not "shifting" to "another reality" and if that's what you believe then that is what you experience. You are the creator and you say what goes.

Your beliefs and assumptions are always reflected back to you as the creator.

There is nothing *outside* of you. You are all there is.

You can experience absolutely anything in your universe and that includes being able to manifest "different/parallel realities" to exist for you in your one reality (which is your manifestation).

It is then the one reality that has been completely warped by you for you to experience the "different realities" that you manifested to come true.

Your ultimate objective is to change your mindset and transform your perception of yourself as a deliberate creator. Conquer your mind and you will be able to achieve anything your heart desires.

the reason why i decided to write this is because i’ve been getting the same question multiple times and i feel like there’s a need to dive deep into this issue.

anxiety in the state of the wish fulfilled

the questions i get are:

“idk why but i’m anxious when i get in the state, is it normal?”

“how do you deal with anxiety while in the state?”

“why am i anxious when i imagine my wish fulfilled?”

lucky for you i’m here to clear these doubts.

short answer:

if you’re anxious when imagining your wish fulfilled then you’re not in the state.

long answer:

now let me preface this by saying that emotions do not manifest but can arise based on which state you are in.

we all say that emotions don’t matter at all because it simply shouldn’t be your focus to feel “positive” emotions all the time, BUT with your state changing you can feel different emotions.

what is a state explained in simple words?

it is a concept of yourself, an experience, a reality you want to experience.

with this knowledge tell me why imagining yourself to be who you really want to be and believing that to be true would arise any anxiety within you.

quickly!

tell me why something you so deeply want being fulfilled, true, realized would arise anxiety within you.

it simply shouldn’t.

when you step into the state and imagine yourself to be who you want to be, believe it to be true and then anxiety starts immediately it means you haven’t actually accepted that concept of yourself to be true.

if you had you would probably feel something similar to relief, satisfaction, bliss accompanied by a confidence in knowing you now are who you want to be and have what you want to have.

anxiety and fear do not belong to the state of the wish fulfilled simply because they belong to the opposite of it: you’re anxious if you don’t know for sure if your desire is yours, you fear if you don’t know for sure your 3D is gonna reflect.

anxiety and fear are born when you don’t internalize the law and doubt it.

anxiety and fear go hand in hand with doubt.

your anxiety stems from the same place that peace comes from, you are the cause of it. you feel anxious because you think something outside is happening, something else outside of you can happen and take your desire away.

how do you deal with this “problem”?

the solution is very simple, almost so simple that your logical mind won’t allow you to accept such a thing.

the only reason why you experience anxiety is because you have not accepted your true identity.

you may think you are believing it is true but you are not accepting it as fact.

you are lying to yourself if you say you accepted it as fact but then you go and look for it, you doubt it, you feel anxious, you worry about what’s gonna happen and how you’re gonna react if the opposite shows up.

only acknowledging the opposite as a possibility is showing you which state you are in.

i feel like most of you focus on states because it looks like a method you can use to manifest but you never actually acknowledge your true identity. you don’t take your time to understand who you truly are and without acknowledging and accepting your true identity you will continue to flip flop between states.

states are not a method, you don’t choose to use states. states are all there is, states of consciousness is what the world is.

different states of consciousness are different experiences you can have within, and as within so without.

states are experiences you are consciously choosing to live in imagination. whether these experiences be good or bad you need to understand that imagination is all there is, you are always living in a world of imagination.

every single experience you have/want is just a state.

without being clear on who you really are you will continue to doubt and reason your way into manifestation and eventually you’ll be finding yourself in what seems to be a never ending cycle of trying and self-sabotaging, filled with doubt, fear, anxiety and worry.

you put your 3D world on such a high pedestal (i’m not blaming you) and you don’t believe to be who you really want to be because you are “only” imagining it.

i say that i don’t blame you because i know this new way of behaving and reacting and thinking is the exact opposite of what we have always been thought:

the physical world is reality, therefore something is real only if you physically see it

we don’t know why and how things happen to us

we need to work hard to achieve what we want

be “realistic” the world of the senses is factual

it seems so unnatural to think that WE are the CAUSE of everything, that things happen TO us and not THROUGH us.

it seems so unnatural to dismiss the physical world as basically fake and not take as fact what other people tell you.

i know it seems unbelievable but it isn’t.

it simply isn’t and you can prove it to yourself by looking back at your life experiences, you can see how everything came from imagination first, you can see how you’re always trusting your opinion over anything. you can see it so clearly and when you see it you will feel extremely dumb for not believing it.

your true identity

i ALWAYS talk about this, every answer i give you when you ask me something includes this basic information but i’m not sure you take it as seriously as i want you to take it.

there’s is no other world outside of imagination and there’s is no other self outside of imagination.

you fear because you think in terms of separation: you think theres some other cause outside of you making things happen and you think that the outer world is separate from imagination, you believe 3D and 4D to be separate.

i want this to be the only time you need something outside of you for validation, i want this to be the last post you read to check if you’re “doing it right”, i want this to be the last realization you need.

there is no inner man AND outer man, there’s only the inner man in imagination living inside of a flesh body.

you are not your flesh body (yes, this is why you can change your appearance), you are not your brain (this is why there’s no such thing as making neural pathways or convincing/reprogramming your subconscious), you are not your mind (this is why thoughts don’t manifest), you are not your state (this is why you can jump in and out of states and why you can’t be stuck in a state), you are not your emotions or feelings (this is why you NEED to let out your emotions and not be mad at yourself for whatever reaction you had).

you are pure consciousness, you are I Am.

you are all imagination and imagination is all there is, the world of the senses has no choice but to mimic imagination, it has to, there is NO OTHER CAUSE.

if you’re the inner man living in imagination always and imagination is the only creator/only reality there’s no way that what you declare to be yours isn’t fact.

whatever happens in imagination is a fact, the problem is that we have been thought to dismiss imagination as fiction and contaminate our states with the world of the senses forgetting that we created the physical experience.

the senses are mimicking imagination and unless you accept imagination as the only creator of physical experience you will not be able to let go of doubts and reasoning. you will continue to worry and wonder “is it enough?” “is it really true?” you won’t take it seriously.

unless you truly understand that you are a figment of god and all you have to do is decide that that’s yours now, that’s who you are now you will continue to go back and forth between the state of having and the state of not having.

imagination is your creator and you just need to truly internalize that you can have what you want because everything in this world is your creation whether you believe it or not.

don’t start to wonder if it’s right to just declare something as yours, if you’re worthy of it, because all that you are experiencing is your creation. everything is created by you.

by actually understanding that everything is your creation you will stop wondering about what you should or shouldn’t do based on other people’s judgment, you stop thinking things “oh maybe it’s not right to manifest my sp, why would i force anything on them? it’s not right.” because you created them not wanting to be with you in the first place.

you are not changing anyone or forcing anything on anybody. everything was created by you and if you don’t like it you have the power and the right to change it because this is your life, this is your reality, why would you choose to experience something you don’t want if you can experience something else?

there’s nobody outside of you and you don’t have to ask permission to have what you want, you give it to yourself.

you are always fulfilling yourself with something, you are always assuming things to be true so instead of perpetually being fulfilled with not having your desire why don’t you just accept it is yours now?

the concept of time doesn’t exist outside of you, future and past only exist in your mind and when you imagine you need to remove the concept of time and only worry about experiencing it now.

when you fear what’s gonna happen tomorrow it’s because you think there’s something outside of you causing things to happen.

see how just knowing your true identity solves all of your problems?

there is NOTHING other than imagination causing stuff to happen, NOTHING!!! get this inside your little head and accept that the 3D is dead and powerless. it can’t do anything to you, it’s not your enemy it’s only adjusting according to you!

you can’t be in the state and expect something opposite to happen, it means you haven’t accepted the new state as fact.

tomorrow is shaped by who you are being now!

so why worry about tomorrow if the cause of tomorrow is who you are now?

why worry about the future if the cause of it is who you are being now?

enjoy being the person who has their desire right now because that’s all you can do. enjoy being it now.

enjoy being financially stable now.

enjoy being in a relationship now.

enjoy being loved now.

enjoy being beautiful now.

enjoy being intelligent now.

because it is true, you really are it, you really have it.

don’t “pretend”, don’t think you have to trick yourself into believing it has expressed physically because that’s not your job, your job is to dismiss the 3D as not real because even your manifestation materialized won’t give you anything you didn’t give to yourself first.

you don’t have to trick yourself into believing it is physically here, you have to understand that invisible reality it’s what’s real and you don’t need to give a meaning to the 3d which is only mimicking imagination.

the 3D is only mimicking the feeling of having you are feeling.

Hey there :) Thank you for your kind ask! I’m so glad you liked the post. Your English is great, don’t worry about it!

I didn’t originally plan on responding to asks, but I got a lot asking the exact same thing, so here it is. No, I will not be or become an active blog. I already manifested my life to be the way I want and there’s not really a reason for me to be on here haha, I barely use tumblr anymore, and when I do it’s mainly for fashion related posts but every once in a while a loa related post will pop up. There’s SO MUCH information out there already, you really don’t need me.

But, if I can give you some advice: you already know how to manifest. You don’t have to seek it out any longer, everything starts within. Just pick a method (literally any method is fine) that you like and stick with it. Stop desiring, wanting, wishing and dreaming of all the things you want and start deciding that you already have them. Only then will you see true change. Don’t treat methods like trends, jumping from one to another just because they happen to be popular at the time. At the end of the day, none of these methods really matter. They’re merely bridges to get you into the state of having what you want. No method is better than the other (looking at the people who look down on affirming), it just depends on what you like and what works for you. Remember that manifesting shouldn’t be a chore.

So anyway, this will probably be my last post. But in my (short) time lurking here, I’ve found some blogs I really like and would love to recommend them to you: @lavender--fairy @sexydreamgirl @gorgeouslypink @itsravenbitch @23209 @sutheworld @trynafindbarbiee @remcycl333 @sparklingself @heart-shaped-tears @dollie-so-divine @littlemissprettyprincess @0t0mie @heavenlythea @pearlygrace @nakedbibi333 @magic-irl @zen-shu

They have some great posts! Read as much as you need! Then, stop reading, and APPLY. You already have everything. Relax, take some time and give yourself the life you want. There’s no hurry, there’s no rush, there’s no time. There’s nowhere you need to be, nothing you need to do, no one you need to be. It’s all you.

This probably isn’t the answer you were waiting for, but I really hope this helps anyway! You deserve to live the life you desire, and I wish you nothing but the best! <3

They will try to convince you “you are fooling yourself” when thinking you can have whatever you want.

Those people gave up on their visions a long time ago. They chose safety and predictability. They did not choose to grow.

And they want you to do the same. They feel threatened by your big dreams. And people who feel intimidated will try to diminish your self-worth.

Why would you take advice from those who refuse to be more and do more?

Why would you stop believing in yourself just because they never did?

Never apologize for having visions different from what society expects of you.

You deserve a life of abundance. You deserve a life of fulfilment. And only you can create that life through the knowledge that you deserve more. That knowledge helps you make a step in the right direction.

Don’t end up settling. Don’t end up wondering if there could ever be something more possible for you.

Nobody can make you feel irrelevant without your consent. You, focusing upon the opinions of others is your permission for lousy treatment. As long as you allow their comments into your head, you will lose sight of your grand vision.

When people tell you“you cannot do it”, this is a sign to follow your intuition.

Dreams belong to rebels.

When everyone tells you to “get real”, you dream bigger. And make others uncomfortable by the magnitude of your ideas.

When everyone has an opinion about how your life should be, you smile and walk your path, many times, a lonely one. Following the beaten path is boring. But remember, your dreams are anything but boring.

When the world appears like you cannot have what you want, you believe in yourself and persist.

You don’t need everyone to believe in you.

To be successful, you need to believe in yourself.

When you hear advice from somebody else, always look at their life and achievements.

If they aspire to your level of happiness and ambitions and their life reflects how you want to live, then, by all means meditate on the advice.

But never accept criticism or advice from somebody who does not represent your standards and aspirations.

affirmations enchiridion · volume I : self concept.

𐙚 enchiridion: a handbook; manual.ㅤ𐙚 affirmation: the assertion that something exists or is true.ㅤ✸ these posts will serve as a source of reference for anyone looking for reassurance and/or affirmations to use for their manifestations.

· i am the one in everything:

i am god. i am the sole creator of this reality. i am the operant power. i am an infinite being. i am a master manifestor. everything that surrounds me is my creation. all existing things owe their presence to me. i am the stem of the flower, i am the roots of the tree. i am the one in everything. I AM.

why would it be hard for a god to get what they want? i am all-powerful. i am omnipotent. i can create anything, i can bring anything to life. i can have anything i want. my mind is limitless, my imagination is the source of all existence. i place all of my faith upon myself for i am the onliest god.

i am not the three-dimensional body i am now occupying, i am my mind. i am not this empty shell. i am greater than what its senses perceive. i am awareness and i am aware of what is true and what is false. my consciousness is the only truth. everything outside of it is of my conception and therefore mutable.

· i am free to feel:

i am worthy of my desires, i deserve whichever it is i want. i have no reason to feel guilt or hopelessness when it comes to my manifestations. no matter how hard life can get, it does not come in the way of my desires. i am free to feel whatever emotions arise from the outer world and its situations, i am a god but i am a human too, and i know that gloomy feelings, whichever their nature may be, have no effect over my desires. i am gentle with myself and i let myself feel whatever it is i need to feel when things get hard and the world seems like too much, because i know it won't last forever and i have the power to make it all better when i am ready to do so.

· i am all-powerful:

once i become aware of a desire and assume its end result is now mine, the desire comes to fruition. there is nothing left to want, there is nothing to wait for or hope for or expect. my desires are not separate from me, they do not exist in a realm separate from the one i inhabit because there is nothing and nowhere but my self. my desires are god-given for i am god and i gave them to me myself. my desire is alive in my consciousness and since my consciousness is the only reality, my desire is real and already in my possession. what i have in my mind is what i truly have.

there is no time delay to my manifestations because time does not exist unless i want it to. there is no resistance to my manifestations because nothing can oppose my power. there is nothing that i cannot have. there is nothing that is impossible.

all i have to do is affirm and persist in it because, how could it not come to pass? how could i possibly fail? how could a god ever face defeat? that is the only impossible thing: failure.

affirmations enchiridion · volume II : overall life.

𐙚 enchiridion: a handbook; manual.ㅤ𐙚 affirmation: the assertion that something exists or is true.ㅤ𖹭 this post is part of a series, you can check the previous one here, or go to #enchiridion in my blog.

· i am hearty and guarded:

i am forever healthy. whatever body i choose to inhabit is always well. no harm of any kind can ever come my way or to the ones i love. i never suffer from any sickness nor get any uncomfortable symptoms that might alter my days. i am never in pain.

i am always safe and protected. i am surrounded only by people who mean well and want the best for me. only good things happen to me, only good experiences come my way. everything always works out in my favour. i am the luckiest person. i am forever happy.

· i am abloom:

i am living the life of my dreams. everyday is a new adventure i cannot wait to revel in. from the moment i wake up to when i fall asleep, life keeps surprising me with how lovely it can all be. every instant is a beautiful experience i get to enjoy. i find every waking moment amazingly rewarding.

my social life is always flourishing. i am constantly in touch with the people i care for. every moment i spend with someone else is a wondrous and pleasing event. i always have fun and create the most enchanting memories with the people i love. i have the best relationship with my family, my relatives are loving, caring and understanding. i have the most wonderful friends, who support me and are proud of me. i never have arguments with anyone nor i am ever in bad terms with anyone.

i am incredibly successful. all of my endeavours are fruitful and come out exactly as i want them to. i am prosperous. i can manage any problem that might come my way with unparalleled gracefulness and intelligence.

my life is a peaceful, most joyful, beautiful heaven and i am so thankful i get to experience it everyday. i am so thankful to myself for crafting this wonderful world. i am so thankful to myself for granting me this marvelous life.

affirmations enchiridion · volume III : personality and appearance.

𐙚 enchiridion: a handbook; manual.ㅤ𐙚 affirmation: the assertion that something exists or is true.ㅤ✸ this post is part of a series, you can check the previous ones here (self concept) and here (overall life), or go to #enchiridion in my blog.

· i am the favoured one:

i am divine. i am awe-inspiring. i am lovely. i am unheard-of. i am everyone's favourite. i am youthful and refreshing. i am endearing. i am delicate. i am ethereal. i am the definition of the word “empyreal”.

i have an angelic disposition. every thought i have is exquisite. every word that comes out of my lips feels like poetry. every movement i make is delicate and breathtaking. my presence carries warmth and grants tranquility to everyone around. people smile when they think of me. i am everybody's dream. i am the one that brings harmony in moments of tempest. i am the one people turn to when in need of advice. i can handle any problem with unparalleled gracefulness and intelligence.

i am beloved. i am cherished. i am treasured. i am admired. i am respected. i am doted-on. everyone loves me. everyone finds me gracious and charming. i am the one that comes to mind when people think of beautiful, revered things. each person gives me their complete attention. everyone listens to what i have to say. everyone appreciates my opinions and takes them into account.

i am compassionate. i am sincere. i am genuine. i am gentle. i am calm and at peace. i am filled with light, serenity, creativity and clarity. i am careful of my well-being. i am loving. i am passionate. i am devoted to the people i love. i am true to my feelings and principles. i am truehearted.

· i am the radiant one:

i am beautiful. i am the fairest of them all. i am breathtaking. i am graceful. i am mesmerising. i am alluring. i am heavenly. i am the brightest star.

my body is perfect. my body looks exactly how i want it to. my frame is delicate but strong. i am always in good shape. i have the physique of an athlete. i can always trust my body to be healthy. my factions are beautiful and captivating. my frame is entirely symmetrical. my face can inspire artists to paint their masterpieces. i am completely satisfied with the way i look.

i always look my best. i am elegant. i am stylish. i look good no matter what i wear. every clothing piece fits me exactly the way i want it to. i carry clothes the way a model does. my hair is always shiny and soft. my nails are always healthy and pretty. i am free from any unwanted hair. i don't ever get acne or blackheads. i am never sweaty, never too hot nor too cold. my skin is smooth, consistently hydrated and clear.

✿ important note: the affirmations in the next paragraph might be triggering for people who deal with eating disorders.

i have the healthiest relationship with food. no matter what i eat, it always is nutritious and good for my body. i am always hydrated. i can eat whatever and however much i want without worrying or feeling guilty. i do not care about my weight because i know i am perfect. i love food and i know that it is good for me. every meal i have is delectable.

there is an ever-present but subtle air of resplendence that accompanies me wherever i go. a soft, most delightful perfume is left behind whenever i move. no matter what angle, i look good in every picture of video. my appearance provokes a feeling of religious devotion. my semblance is glorious. my fairness invokes thoughts of purity and perfection.

whenever I feel myself succumbing to an unfavorable pattern of thinking by giving into my worries, I like to recenter myself by remembering that I don’t live in a world of facts, I live in a world of imagination and the only one who can sabotage anything is myself by what I choose to be because I am, have been and always will be the cause, so if I can pick between being accepted or rejected and the same "effort" is required for both then why would I not pick acceptance?

a lot of us self sabotage by feeding into the unfavorable scenario because we have so many reasons to believe that it won’t work out. but you don’t need to be concerned with it “working out” or not because creation is finished. you’re not "creating" a state of consciousness because they all exist within you awaiting occupancy. the means are not up to you to determine. you're only asked to accept it by claiming yourself to be via I AM.

Let yourself experience it now. Plant the seed.

I remember when I first started my journey (I was around 16), I was so consumed with what I was trying to get that I thought I had to keep doing methods to get the feeling I wanted. I would force myself through grueling days of the 369 method over and over again and get nothing. This resulted in me becoming so hallow that I believed I could never experience my dream life. But then I realized something that I hope will help anyone who reads this.

You can experience it now. Give yourself the freedom to experience it now.

I remember when I wanted to be beautiful, when I would wake up to covered mirrors because I did not even want to see myself. One day I decided that I would be that beautiful girl no matter what, even if it started by imagining it.

Imagination is the only reality, btw. Everything is you, you can be anyone you want to be. I would imagine myself walking into rooms of people looking at me, overflowing compliments, dates, looking at myself in the mirror, smiling at my reflection, I would imagine being on vogue covers, receiving fan mail about how beautiful I was, my friends stopping me and telling me how beautiful I was, etc. I would turn on my favorite song, and I would be the beauty queen I wanted to be, right then and there.

One day, I remember walking into my bathroom and suddenly feeling so irritated with the small cloth I had used to cover my bathroom mirror that I ripped it off, because how could it get in the way of me seeing myself. And when I looked at myself I saw every inch of beauty I had wanted, I saw myself, for the first time and I loved myself. I loved my face, my eyes, my nose, the beauty had been sitting there dormant waiting for me to bring awareness to it. I cried so hard that my eyes were sore and I still was in awe of myself.

Before I knew it, I was receiving the very compliments I imagined, being asked on dates, being stopped on the street, being admired and adored and it wasn’t because I truly wanted those things, what I wanted was to feel loved, to feel adored, and I gave myself that, i repotted, watered, and tended to that tree in my heart until it grew and produced it’s own fruits naturally all on its own.

It starts with you my love. Give it to yourself and you shall see it reflect. Go within and don’t be scared to explore the depths of your imagination because it is so powerful, you are so powerful. Step into that feeling you seek and everything else will follow, but you are the gardener.

so I ask you, what seeds are you planting within yourself?

i like to view myself as a gardener. here i stand, in my wonderful garden. it‘s beautiful and great in its size — i might even say "infinite". and i can plant any type of flower in here! i can decide which flower i water, how much water i choose to give them and how often i do it.

sadly, my flowers cannot fully live on their own, they cannot grow without any help — they simply cannot exist without me. i give them the water, the ground and the light that they need to remain alive. they will, however, stay with me as long as i keep taking care of them, giving them what they need for a living. therefore, it’s entirely up to me which flowers i want to keep flourishing.

now, each flower represents a state of consciousness. and my garden depicts my imagination. i can choose which flower i want in my garden, meaning which state i want to occupy. i can also choose how much water and light i want to provide them with, meaning how long and how often i want to return to that state of mind. i decide how intensely i want to identify with it, wearing it similarly to a piece of garment. and whenever i water my garden, i fulfill myself from within, embodying that specific state, saturating my mind with it.

the gardener and his garden.

let's say you had a garden that truly belonged to you and you only, a garden with no limitations or restrictions but your own, a garden with infinite possibilities, a garden that you are entirely responsible for … what would you do with it? what would it look like? what type of flowers would you plant in there?

if you like your garden as it is right in this given moment, that’s beautiful! leave it as it is and make sure to keep looking after it. but if you‘re dissatisfied with your garden, i want you to always remember that you are free to change it whenever and wherever you want. you don’t have to keep it as it is, nor do you have to wait for someone to offer you help. you can bury old flowers you don’t like anymore and get new ones that actually please you. you can create a garden that you truly fancy and adore.

turn your garden into a floral museum filled with love and light. let it be a place you appreciate returning to, a place you are fond of, a place so wonderful that other gardeners respect and admire you for it!