S I N K I N G

...but, there’s some stuff you guys should know about.

I’m not exactly in a “state of grace” right now. Stuff has been going on, personately, intimately and also publicly. I’m coming to terms with the fact that I have to say goodbye to something I really cared about, and I won’t go into details right now but just know that I’m not in a really good place right now.

This, luckily, happened while I’m still laptopless, so I couldn’t have been online anyway. Also my best friend came to visit and we spent a week around — that was so, so nice, but now she’s gone and I’m still on the edge of confusion. Idk. Sounds like a bunch of bullshit, doesn’t it?

Anyway, I’m sorry for disappearing. I think I’ve ignored pretty much every message lately and I’m so, so sorry. I’ll get back to everyone once I’m in a better place, but please be aware that your support means so much to me and the few of you I can actually call friends mean more to me than I’ll ever be able to word.

Now, let’s talk business: I don’t wanna give up writing. A part of me wants to move on, but the other knows I couldn’t give up on Morgan if I wanted. I can do without all my other muses, more or less, but Morgan — she just means too much. I couldn’t live without her. 

Plus, I just started watching The Affair and — w o w. I don’t think I’ve ever found a show that better embodied Morgan’s aesthetic, or a character more similar to Morgan than Alison Lockhart. It’s giving me so many thoughts and so much muse, but also ideas such as: what if I changed Morgan’s setting to a small fishing town, instead of a city? What if I made R/uth W/ilson her alt fc? (Bryce is 100% Morgan, I could never replace her; but Ruth also fits perfectly, so I’m really thinking about this).

Anyway, this makes it clear that I can’t abandon Morgan, and rather that even if I give up every other blog and project on tumblr (which I’m honestly considering), I am going back to Morgan and probably rebooting her as soon as I get my laptop back (no news on that yet btw. I hate life).

The one thing I might do, though, is turn that blog into a really, really selective blog. I’m in a situation where I just don’t feel that safe with strangers, and I wanna make sure I put my friends, my real friends, first.

And that’s all.

Catch me on im’s if you’d like (& also if you’d like my contact info)!! I love you all, darlings.

Stay safe xo — ♥

I’M CURRENTLY LAPTOPLESS.

Because apparently life really hates the notion of me being online, right when I was getting more time to be around my laptop did a thing it really loves doing and RANDOMLY SNAPPED IN HALF. I’m taking it to the IT today but it’s probably gonna be a couple weeks before I can even hope to get it back. Last time it did this, HP “fixed” it - I’m hoping they can get it replaced now because I don’t want to have this issue again, but I’m not sure the warrantee covers this (I bought it 13 months ago and if it was a 12 months warrantee I swear to god I’m going to set something on fire).

So yeah, basically I’m gonna be MIA for a while. I might pop in now and then if I have the time, and do a couple scarce replies because I saved all my icons on the external hard drive — if I do, though, it’s gonna be in the mornings (basically when y’all are asleep) bc I have to use my mom’s laptop and I can’t do that when she’s around.

So, that. I’m so sorry. You can still reach me on s/kype @ ghoulliver and k/ik @ fraayed if we’re mutuals though (& I’m always on tumblr mobile when I can so you can IM me all you want). 

I might have to drop something (most things) when I’m back, but we’ll see. I’m so sorry. 

Please don’t forget about me while I’m gone ♥ ily all, stay safe kiddos!!