i'd rather rescue myself;

TATIANA: It's exactly right.

TATIANA: Because it is exhausting and all the glitz and gleam are just blockers from seeing that, every now and then, it must seep through for you.

TATIANA: You better.

TATIANA: I think these people have just been babied too much their whole life, a little dose of reality never hurt anyone

TATIANA: But that's what makes you, you, babe.

SYDNEY: That's probably right, honestly.

I’d ask which one, but it’s probably fair to answer about the one I thought of first. Or maybe both. I don’t know. Yes, I still love Sterling. I also love Dev though, but something tells me he’s not the one people want to know the details on. 

Everything with Sterling was passionate and chaotic in the best and worst of ways. There was never a dull moment and that sounds fun and exciting, but people forget that horribly fantastical moments aren’t dull either, but they certainly aren’t fun. Everything we did, we did with no reservations. Fuck, fight, it didn’t matter, we never held back. And there was something about that, well it was comforting. Even if it wasn’t the best trait to have, at least Sterling and I always knew what to expect from the other. Unfortunately that expectation was just always the worst because we did bring out the worst in each other. 

Honestly? That part hurts. I’m happy in Auradon, happier than I’ve been in a long time, really, but I do really miss my dad. I’m really close to him, so any chance I have to go back I’m sure I’ll take it, but those chances are few and far between unfortunately. 

TATIANA: You know I adore you right?

TATIANA: Fair enough, we don't have to talk about it, I'm not the best with advice anyways....I've been told I'm /insensitive/ or whatever.

SYDNEY: I adore you too babe.

TATIANA: Yawn, the Thana twins wish they could be like me.

TATIANA: You sure? What's got you so tired?

SYDNEY: I'm sure they do babe.

Josh: lol even though he's your ex your gonna keep his secret?

Josh: shit must be nice

Josh: what's wrong?

Sydney: Yeah, I know. It just feels wrong to tell someone else. Especially since I know deep down he wasn't telling me to actually tell me but more so just to hurt me. So it feels wrong to then tell someone else just to spite him and the other person.

Sydney: Just hurt, I guess? Overall by him. Like, I keep thinking that no, this isn't really Sterling. He's just pretending to be this ass. But also I don't truly think he's terrible, not deep down. He does terrible things at times, but he's still someone I care about I suppose. Which sucks because I would REALLY love to just blast him.

Sydney: Did you know when we took him back to his place and I walked him up to the door, he said that he would always love me? Drunk. He's able to do that only while drunk it seems, sure, but still.

Josh: I could have told you that, salem

Josh: oh shit, didn't know he had it in him

Josh: who was it?

Josh: yeah well, you would have regretted it if something had happened. You're soft like that ;)

Sydney: I shouldn't say.

Josh: Probably, maybe that's why we work so well

Josh: as friends & in bed

Josh: drunk people say and do stupid shit, it's whatever. He's an idiot

Josh: but you shouldn't have to deal with that shit alone either so don't worry about it

Sydney: Thanks

[...]

Sydney: He's kind of a dick so. Apparently slept with someone I thought was a friend so that's...nice. Really fucking nice.

[...]

TATIANA: wow, look at me, contacting the dead with no magic? i really am THAT bitch huh?

TATIANA: even tho im gagging while i ask, are you alright?

SYDNEY: Could put the Thana twins to shame with that deep connect to the dead and gone.

TATIANA: oh, so you are alive?

TATIANA: sure, why not.

“Shit! I’m sorry. Shit I’m so sorry I wasn’t - are you okay? I promise I’m not normally this much of a klutz...well not usually.” @arlomerlin​

“Sterling, Ela, really? Sterling? Don’t you non-Isle bitches have some rule about not sleeping with your friend’s exes?” @elaolivia​

STERLING: great chat, as always.

STERLING: Sorry I'm not in the mood to celebrate your "budding romance" while I'm dealing with Beatrice ditching me to be Queen?