Sweet Nothings

Very hard.

To unlove you.

As it turns out...

My love is unyielding.

Is stretches through all the timelines. All the universes.

My love for you has no end.

And so, I find it hard to start a new beginning.

When the end hasn't ended.

And I know that I will always love you.

Until my hair is grey and my beauty has been wrinkled.

And someone will ask me "were you ever in love..?"

And I will say, "Once in this lifetime. And once in the next, and once in every lifetime thereafter..."

Everything will be different now.

Way back when, when I thought she would just be a little play thing.

But this time...this time broke me.

It left me entirely empty.

Because this time I knew you had gone to fast and too deep with this one.

And my instincts are screaming.

It won't be good in the end.

And you'll come looking...

Nobody wants a quiet introverted girl.

Girls should be fun and spontaneous.

Nobody wants a sad, pick me girl.

Girls should be positive and confident.

Nobody wants an out of shape girl.

Girls should be toned and trimmed.

Nobody wants a nerdy girl.

Girls should like girly things.

Nobody wants a broken girl.

Girls should deal with their own issues.

Nobody wants an independent girl.

Girls should be like damsels.

Nobody wants a girl with a witch nose.

Girls just be perfect and doll like.

Nobody wants that.

I am forgotten.

A mere whisper

That lingers in the background.

Patiently waiting.

I imagined everything that could happen.

But I know that no matter what I imagined, the scenerio I wanted couldn't possibly happen.

I don't know why a piece of me still hopes.