I am misery

I'm a bad person...

And it always breaks me when my spoiled ass sister refuses to admit that she is OBVIOUSLY the fuckin favorite. Bitch.

Jesus H christ on crutches and crackers... like honestly in think my mom and step-dad are cousins or some shit because FUCK ARE MY SISTERS STUPID. Mostly the youngest. They literally act like toddlers. How many times in the last week have I asked them to please turn off the light when they leave a room? 176 times. How many of those times did they listen? 9. 9 fucking times. My sister has a dog she calls hers, my other sister has a cat she calls hers. Who feeds, waters, changes the litter, and just general takes care of those animals? Me. Who is the only person in the house with even a little back bone when it comes to these kids? STILL ME. I'm so fucking tired of these idiot children. My younger sister is a bitch to every one EXCEPT the people who are a bitch to her, because of course all rational people abuse those who love them, and love those who abuse them. She constantly spews fucked up shit at me just for trying to get her to have some responsibility, and when I ask for an apology... I get more fucking abuse. And all my mom does is sit and make excuses for this fucked up kid. She does nothing but miss school, get both of us adults threatened with fines and jail time for missing said school, make giant messes, lay in her own filth, mistreat animals, scream, break shit, use and steal mine and my other sisters things, is just generally a fucking cunt, annnnddd my mother still completely excuses all her actions by TURNING ON ME AND MY ONLY SANE SISTER. Fuck this whole situation. I shouldn't have to fucking feel this way and my own mother shouldn't be invalidating my fucking feelings 100% of the time. I asked my fucked sister for an apology last night for something stupid she did, she turned around and screamed at me, and when I looked to my mom for some kind of backup/help/support she yelled at me too. I'm so sick of the toxicity!!! I'm the only fucking person in this house with any sense, empathy, compassion, or understanding. Goddamn. I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING SO FUCKING SAD!

I get extremely tired of hearing people whine and complain "I thought 2016 would be MY YEAR for sure! Boy was I wrong... etc. Etc..." Like... NO. You won't EVER, EVER have a year where everything is great, you are drama free, you have nothing but happiness, and everything goes smoothly and in your favor. It just will NEVER happen! It is impossible. That is just what life is. A series of punches to the face, with SOME great, peaceful times/memories. The sooner people realizes that, the sooner things start to get easier.