A message from sweethara’s founder
My head still feels so heavy.
She will be remembered. I am so sorry it came to this. I lack words to express how I truly feel, but I will try.
This blog will remain, for everyone in need of a dose of honey Hara, as we used to say. We haven't updated properly for the last two years, but the most bright and beautiful moments of her career since her debut are around this blog.
For years, updating sweethara was my favorite thing to do. Making layouts for the blog, editing pictures for posts, thinking about how to make everything looks at place and organized, collecting hundreds of pictures of the queen to post, not to mention the amazing people I had the opportunity to meet. Waking up in the middle of the night to watch KARA’s comebacks since my country has 12 hours timezone difference to her country. Watching full 2 hours long tv shows in a language I don’t understand just to see her and her members talking and laughing... Following her career, seeing her success and her happiness, rooting for her, supporting her in every way it was possible for me... These memories are precious.
She gave me good memories and inspiration, despite never have meeting her in person. She was part of my life for years and I will never forget her.
I would always check for news of her in the morning at work - that was something I did for the last 11 years. Since may this year, I was worried about how she was with more concern, wondering if she was happy, if she was satisfied with herself. I was so happy she was promoting in Japan, releasing new music, touring, CFs. I truly had hope.
I got so scared with the news of Sulli...
I was always wondering if she was sleeping well, eating well, resting... She endured so much. All her career, all the meaningless hate she got. This is so unfair.
These days, my mornings have been... very weird. There’s a sense of emptiness that comes with the death of someone you loved that’s hard to handle. The world keeps turning, no matter what we do, no matter how much I wish it would just stop a little.
I have said it before, not to ignore sadness. I must feel it. I am alive and I must feel it. At least, for a time. Embrace it. Face it. And then, strengthen myself from it. Sadness will pass, everything will pass. Everything is temporary. Ourselves included. Time is so precious.
Trying to ignore it won’t make it go away. Trying to hide it won’t make it easier. So feel it, grieve, cry, cry, cry, cry a lot for this moment. She was important to you, it is ok to cry.
For everyone suffering right now, please, seek for help. Take your time, no pressure. But do it as soon as you feel ready to. Do not let the flame go away. Also, keep doing the stuff you like. Keep liking your things. Keep thinking about the next day. And the next. Life is full of surprises, something good can happen everyday. Work on your hobby - or find a hobby! something that makes you happy!, be excited about it. Be satisfied about it.
Seek for help. Take your medicine, go to your therapy, stop a little to breath, in and out, slowly; stop and see the ocean, see the sky. Pet that dog. I don't know. I know you are trying your best, keep pushing.
You can be healed, we are able to be healed. This is the magical thing about the humankind. We are always transforming. You can bloom into something even more beautiful than you already are. Everyday, you are perfect, you will be alright. I am always rooting for you.
And if you are/feel fine and mentally healthy, please, don’t turn your back on someone who’s suffering... The things are different in their heads. There is... a different world in their heads. It’s turbulent all the time, noisy all the time. Please, be patient, be kind. Tell them that you are there for them if they need you. Be there for them. You have no idea how these words and actions are powerful.
For everyone out there, be more understanding of the pain of others. Don't send hate online or personally or whatever. It is still hate. It is still terrible. It have killed so many people, it will still kill many others. This is not funny. People who send hate online aren’t trolls, these people are murderers. It has to stop. It has to end. If someone is bothering you online, report them - go for Justice if you think it is the case - and for your own sake, block them. Everyone block them until they are talking to themselves - or go to jail at some point for their crimes.
I don’t want to mention that man here... You know.
Thank you members of sweethara staff, both former members and the ones who remained until the end. I love you.
Thank you for everything.
THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING PART OF IT.
For following us, supporting us. We were in this together. I will be eternally grateful.
I am also grateful I was able to be touched by her existance. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I will celebrate her life the best I can.
She will never be forgotten.
Rest well, our sweet, brave, beautiful Hara.