that’s cool baby

this is about to be a really soft, deep, personal post but i felt like i could share it and hopefully some people could relate to it.

to me and most people i know, music is so powerful. in my life i’ve had a lot of hardships and struggles, i’m no stranger to extreme feelings of darkness, hopelessness, anger, dread, disappointment, shame, etc. i’ve had those feelings in long strides since i was very young and always believed it wasn’t something i could change. something i could heal or fix, something that could be helped. i thought i was broken, so i let myself be broken. i allowed myself to feel and be treated as if i were broken.

but then i made deep connections to music. music that lit something up inside of me that i hadn’t recognized in years: pure joy. like fireworks exploding in my chest, warm water coursing through my veins. absolute happiness. i was so giddy and cheerful because of my love for the songs i found comfort in. i found home in bands and artists, in lyrics. throughout my adolescence until now, music genuinely has brought me out of my darkest places and made me feel like myself again. certain songs or band members or sounds make my brain switch and i get that, “hey, you’re safe. you’re okay. you’re home now, it’s comfortable here.” feeling. from the top of my head to my toes, unexplainable joy.

my point in telling you all this is not to attract attention or pity, but to bring light to a subject that i believe is overlooked or not taken as seriously. music changes lives. bands, artists, songs, lyrics—they change lives. they save them. they inspire confidence, heal heartbreak, comfort broken souls, provide a shoulder to cry on, push for change. music can connect people from all around the world. it helps to create bonds and strengthen friendships, make them closer and more intimate. music reaches farther than the ears and i’ll fully believe that ‘til i die.

i hope some of you that read this understand what i mean and connect to it. i just wanted to share my perspective, how much love i have for music and the importance of those who create it to make all of these things possible.