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Mama, you never wanted to hurt me, I know that. You love me with everything you have and Dad does, too.  As a child I often felt like you know everything, you can protect me from everything and you will always save me. I know you always try. But with getting older I learned that people you love can and will hurt you the most. Of course, it’s logic. I mean nothing and no one is perfect. It’s often very difficult to find the right words, saying what you mean and not hurting the person you love. I’m sure you don’t always think, when you say things like “You’ve never made something good for me in life”. Also I’m sure you didn’t meant it like that. But you should know that words hurt, words are the most painful weapons. And I would rather get shot in my leg than hearing these words from you. I’m sorry, I never wanted to disappoint you. I’m sure in everything people say somethere is a bit truth inside, I know you didn’t want to hurt me, but because I know that things people say in situations like that are maybe exaggerated, but true.  I’m sad that I’m such a letdown for you, but I can’t change that. Sorry.