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I gave up sugar 3 weeks ago today flippantly and spontaneously and in the same fashion I act upon most things in my life these days, a shift in the paradigm, to free oneself from the shackles and limitations, to feel alive, reborn, to rearrange my molecular make up and purify, to reach my potential spiritually, which can only be attained daily with the support of a fully MOT'd vessel to transport the soul on this brief journey through life to bring light and love and all the good stuff, I'm on a mission! 

Becoming more aware of my bodies signals and recognising the signs , attention to the pangs and wails of dis ease in the distance, to soothe the searing pains of my beaten bones. What I have put my fragile human body through has been nothing short of self abuse and punishment a lack of love for myself, I have been wholly untrue to the divinity within. Harsh environments and relationships were merely a manifestation of my own battles within, now my outlook is looking rather sunnier. 

Giving up sugar is like a natural evolution for a spiritual revolution.  Our bodies are like antennas to the divine, the body is a great indicator of what is happening emotionally and spiritually in life, so should never be ignored.

This all became more clear to me after a breakdown,  after losing my home, business, 10 year relationship with my sons father and a very long story, It was a cataclysmic domino effect which I triggered myself, deep down in pursuit of freedom and love, a butterfly effect where I would become new, instead I found myself somewhere I never imagined I could end up, in the dark grips of deep depression, I now know that I was in the cacoon. The thing with clinical depression is you dont realise your in it when your there. I wrote a song about it'   

"Trying to pull you out again, Is like trying to light a fire in the rain" 

It is an impossible strange scary place to be, especially if your alone and bringing up a 7 year old boy. 

Somehow I miraculously got myself back to my mums after 20 years away, I was back for christmas. I opened up to my mum, told her of the strange pains riddling my body and the endless sleepless nights and anxiety and feeling of impending doom. I in my own mind was not depressed, I was possibly dying or very ill, infact at times I was convinced I was dying, I was inside. Despite my mind constantly trying to convince me everything was ok my body started to shout very loudly just before my head shut down completely.

 I took anti depressants for the first time in my life and slept through the night for the first time in months. A few days later we went to church, the minister was praying, the band was playing "does anyone feel they need me to pray for them today, we have a powerful group of people here who will pray for you today" I got shy and didn't ask, but the minister said he felt there was someone here today who is just broken inside 'you are so broken and you just dont know what to do anymore, well god wants you to know that we are all here for you and you will have peace from here on in, you have done everything you can" he carried on, by which stage I was a blubbering mess of unleashed sorrow heartache & pain. I was indeed broken spiritually and emotionally into a million little pieces.

 My body was the first indicator of this deep dis-ease in my being the inner turmoil physically manifested and through the appearance of pain I was able to face the sadness and pain in my life. 

I was quick to take myself off anti depressants after 3 months, I just stopped which they say you should never, but for me they were having an opposite effect to the depression, I was a deeply sedated version of Suzi, quite alot of people liked that. I didn't. 

I felt my soul awakening something stronger than the meds or the obstacles in my way or the circumstances. a spirit transcending all earthly constraints, I had faith in that,  and off the pills I came.

So on a quest to beat the darkness and walk in everlasting light I have taken to treating my body like a temple and to honour the rhythms of being, I walk in nature to reconnect, meditate, do yoga, pray, light candles in churches, go to church sometimes, go to buddhist temples, cuddles and laughter and fun with my son and friends, music, art, books, people, cook healthy meals, juice and drink herbs. Life is a sacred beautiful thing which I never take for granted, to sleep peacefully at night and awaken with an open heart is too precious now. 

Two Years since depress Ville swung into to town, since then I have eliminated a lot of toxic waste from my life, some people, some places and habits the list is endless but happiness is a huge reward. The more joy you receive the more you crave, three weeks sugar free and I'm reaching a new high.. energised, younger, happier, slimmer, fitter, more at ease., the last of some old worn out ways

 on the way out. 

Trying to live a life of integrity is a daily commitment, never clearer than when I declare I'm giving up sugar. Oh just one lick of the nutella spoon, smearing it on the wedge of wholemeal sugar loaded bread from Hovis for my son, but I won't because this isn't just about giving up sugar, Im cleansing my pallet, retraining the patterns, realigning, restoring my body to harmony to have another breakthrough, Im addicted! My son is coming on this journey with me too, my new sugar free flapjacks are his fav's, I do I feel a bit guilty about not allowing him the odd sweet, so I do "allow it" as he puts it, it is a battle I am working it out at the moment .. why do I even call it a treat?

God bless us all, the world is designed to keep us in the shackles of Capitalist consumerism but freeing ourselves from them will be the real revolution, dont hurt yourself for a start.. 

Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. [Matthew 7:12]

If you dont think sugar is doing you any harm, stop taking it for 2 weeks, see the transformation in your physical being then ask yourself how are you feeling? Then when your shopping or heading to the bars see how the world is fuelled on this hidden addictive ingredient in all foods, then follow the chain to the profiteers, to their designs on taking your money by hooking your body on something totally unnecessary and damaging. 

I do believe a real revolution is a spiritual so physically too 

 best put in the bible I reckon..

1 Corinthians 6:19-20, Your Body, His Temple. "Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body," (1 Cor. 6:19-20).

Sugar is big business and its doing us no good whatsoever, Ive given up but one day at a time hey.. 

I wonder is there an SA somewhere? I wouldn't be surprised, its an epidemic! It'll kill ya.  

Just watched this brilliant Trews from Russell Brand, solidifying every reason why sugar can do one!

 So I admire from afar but I know he knows I'm there. 

 I dance around the truth, throw some shapes, let destiny take the reign, leave it in the hands of Gods, be gracious and pure in the dealings of spiritual love and sacred union 

Desire burns your soul,

 it must be quenched

Ok