Susan's Thoughts

When you feel like it's not going anywhere, take a step back and reflect. Reflect why the other person responded the way he/she did. Was it something you said? The way you expressed your body? Reflect how it went and what went through your mind and body. What's being said and done can't be taken back, so be careful with your words. Think before you response, and think before you react. I know our thoughts and feelings easily cover our vision, but grip on yourself and take a step back.

Today when I was on the road to the pumpkin patch, I was excited. I was all dolled and ready to go and pick a sunflower, walk through the maze, and pick a pumpkin. I was ready to celebrate the holiday. It wasn't until I was told something else was happening around the same time. I was stuck with decision making. I felt like if I go and don't make it back on time, the person I'm with or the other group will be sad. But if I do go and try to make it back, I will be rush. My feelings and thoughts started to build up. I started to think that I'm not being supported by my partner. I started to search for a reaction or response from him. I wanted to blame him. I started to recognized these thoughts and feelings and decided to have the wheel turned back. I know that if I go to the pumpkin patch now, it won't be the same. So, I decided to attend the other event because I think it was for the best. But honestly, I decided what I decided on was because I was afraid of words. Afraid of what others may say about me, or think of me as a selfish woman. I didn't want others to label me. I wanted to blame my partner. But NO. I need to own up to my actions. I wasn't brave enough protect myself and brave enough to say "No". However, I forgive myself. I told myself that I did the best thing and didnt allow my thoughts and emotions escalate. Although, I have let myself down, I will allow myself to rise tomorrow and change what didn't go well today, because forgiveness is part of change.

We are so busy chasing our youth and our career that we forget to spend time with our loved ones. By the time you know it, you're all alone in your own puddle of tears. Let's not wait until it's too late. Start making time, and don't take your family for granted.

You told me I failed you. You told me I lost my way to you. You told me I can't measure up to you, and you told me I wasn't enough. But you forgot who I really am. I am YOU. I won't let you take control of mind. I won't let you tell me I can't do it. I won't let you tell me I can't measure up to you, and I won't let you tell me I'm not enough, because I am ENOUGH. I'm going to wake up every day telling you that I'm in charge. I will lead my day, and I will take my risk. Today, I will make a difference.

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From that night, I grew stronger and learned how to love myself better. I learned that at the end of the day, you only have yourself. You may lose others in your life, but most importantly don't lose yourself.

No one is going to put your first, but you. No one is only to love you as much as you. No one is going to care as much as you. So stop waiting, stop putting yourself in situations where you are uncomfortable. Stop making yourself look pety. Stop wondering why and start doing things for yourself. Stop being afraid, and start taking risks. Stop waiting, and start walking. No one is going to tell yourself to stop, but you. Love yourself, and embrace yourself, stop waiting for your dream to become reality. Start shaping your world, and stop being afraid. Face your insecurities, and face reality.

Live your youth, so when you look back you won't regret anything.

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This is why people cheat and get into divorce sometimes. Not all the time, but this one of the reasons.