--It's hard. The summer sun shines down hard on the concrete pavement I walk on. The heat of the cement burns my bare feet as I walk outside. So I run back in.-- All my life I have run away from problems. Why? Its like oh, I'll avoid it and it will go away. It never goes. It lingers like the heat of a hot summer day. So when I'm faced with a problem such as I am now, what do I do? I feel like such an outcast, even though I'm in the crowd. I feel like no one listens, even when I'm screaming. I feel like no one sees me, even though I'm clearly visible. While everyone is doing the right thing, I don't feel right. That is no ones problem but mine. I don't even think my boyfriend can change that. He is the only one that can see me, and now he is losing sight of me too. As he goes on to bigger and greater things, I feel as if I'm losing him too. But how can I stop him? He's succeeding in life-- how can I pull him back? I don't want to pull him back. His success makes me happy, yet the inevitable separation does not. Why do I put myself through the pain of losing him? Because I love him and I want to keep trying. No matter how much it hurts.
