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*wakes up*

“this might be my last post about us because I don’t know if I am allowed to write about us, an us that won’t exist, an us that only i’ll remember because everyone in this damn world would move on but me, a beautiful us that i ruined with my insecurities, an us that i could have grown old too. this might be the last post about something beautiful i ruined unknowingly. don’t do that please. if he is nice to you, he deserves to be loved deeply- deeper than the ocean and warmer than the lava. this is my last post about us. i dont know what i am going to write abut now because all my thoughts have been about us and you can’t leave me. please stay. this is my last post about us. i am hurting. tell me you’ll stay. this is my last post about us. i wont ever. please dont leave me. i dont want to hate the things i loved with you. i dont want to hate myself. this post is about us. the last fucking post. last fucking hug. i should have hugged you for longer. i dont remember what you smelled like. i am sorry for fighting. i am sorry. please come home and hug me. i am sorry. this is my last post about us.”

“I understand why you don’t love me back. I don’t love me either.”