i haven’t posted in a long time but i always get back on here when i need some heavy duty venting. i’m now starting off the last leg of college and whoa it’s been a wild ride. i met my boyfriend, had a toxic relationship for a minute, then clean it the fuck up. i lost a lot of friends and gained a fuck ton too. the sb party life gets to me and i believe i’m becoming a borderline alcoholic, but i know i still don’t drink half as much as other kids in this school do. i rolled tonight and realized how much i genuinely love talking and meeting new people. i also fully realize how insecure i am about 90% of my relationships. i’ve been let down a lot and i learned to not expect anything out of people. i’m slowly finding out that i can’t be everyone’s best friend and i think i’ll learn to live with that.