Life update (hello, is this thing on?)
Crazy to see my last post came January 5th of this year and the post before that was an anonymous question (a q anon...get it?) I am alive. Much of this year was shitty, I was out of work for much of the year. I had probably at least 3 emotional breakdowns related to COVID, job stress, financial stress, etc. The funny thing was the day I had my last emotional breakdown I was in the process of interviewing for a job with a recruiter. I was going through the back and forth and was about to set up an interview with the team looking to hire when I got a call from their HR person saying that they were looking for someone who was currently working, or at least a shorter time between jobs compared to what I had on my resume. I lost it, like completely lost it in an ugly. It was so bad, Daisy saw me crying hysterically in my room and freaked out not know what to do. So she ended up running to my wife and barked at her and ran back to me until my wife came from her office to see me in my shattered state.
I mention all that because not 2 hours after that breakdown, I got a call from an HR person at a company that I had applied to and asked if I would be willing to come in for an in person interview later that same week. They were looking to fill the position quickly and were hoping I was available. I came in, I did as best as I could (and I thought I bombed) and a week later I was offered a job! Iāve been at the company since the end of October and am loving it. I love the work, more importantly, I love the people here I work with. The drive is tough, having to commute about 52 miles (or in California time speak about 1 hr 15 minutes) each way but itās worth it to say I have a job again, and have found purpose.Ā
Many days this year I wondered if the sun would rise again for me, I felt like I lived in a world of darkness with no hope of getting to the light. I even had some dark thoughts about staying in the darkness permanently. Between my wife, and my dog though I made it out the other side. Iām happy that this year will be ending and not soon enough, but right now I really just try to stay present and savor the little things that each day gives me. It was hard to come here because I really had nothing to say or want to share, other than dread, anger and sadness. If anyone is still out there after all this time away, I hope that you are in a good place or at least moving along the path towards finding that good place.Ā





















