All I have is sarcasm and a gun.

And then later she was asked to name 5 male singers and I don't remember all the people she said but she said Frank Sinatra and Axl Rose and i was like oh yes

I honestly think that my social anxiety is worse than my depression because it's a lot harder to control. Like I shake and I blush and my eyes water and I hyperventilate and it's just all bad. 

but wow im having feels about this WE'RE NOT EVEN REALLY GOING TOGETHER I DONT EVEN HAVE A TICKET

- jamie took me to school (SO I WASNT LATE WOO) - matthew elkin hung out with me like all of break - stayed behind in mixed chorus to work on the solo piece of Bottom of the River -my teacher told me that i needed to bring out my voice/power in class which made me happy to know that he likes my voice/power - matthew elkin and i were talking upstairs before c block and i looked around the corner and he was like "who you lookin for" and i was like "nothing-nobody" and he was like "you get men over there?" and i was like "whats it to ya" and omg cute

- TRAVIS WAS ACTUALLY THERE TODAY -also him and margret were talkin shit apparently like right before i walked in and apparently from what travie told me later was he walked in an margret was like "have you experienced the wrath that is dakota yet" and he said "oh yeah she came up to me yesterday. [something(s) i forgot] and i said 'i'll lay you out'" and internally i was like YESYES FUCK LAYME OUT DO IT YES but on the outside i was like "aha id like to see you try" to which he responded with a (very violent) hip bump  -HE LET ME TOUCH HIM TODAY -LIKE WE TOUCHED -HE TOUCHED ME BACK -WE WERE TOUCHING -at one point margret even put her arms across ours and was like "can i get in on this, guys?" and i was like "yeah." but then she took her arm away and i was like no i was serious you couldve stayed but w/e - we started watching a video in astronomy and travis like leaned back onto my desk a little bit (i think he expected me to touch him bc i specifically did not just to see what he'd do) and after a few seconds when i didnt immediately lunge at him, he leaned further, and again i refrained. until he finally laid his entire upper body onto my desk and tilted his head back and just laid on my desk and closed his eyes and i just wOW that kid is fucking beautiful. at that point i just couldnt resist any longer and i like put my fingers under his neck and drew circles with my thumbs into the skin underneath his ears. it was delicious

the downside to today was that i realized that my social anxiety when i fail at something is way worse than i thought. i missed one of the notes in mixed chorus today and i almost cried, like i literally had to hold back tears and pull myself together in order to try again. IT WAS JUST ONE NOTE THAT I MESSED UP AND MY HEART RACED AND I ALMOST CRIED. and i couldnt even help it; it was just my natural reaction. ugh it sucksssssss. that's why i never speak up in class; because im so afraid of being wrong because then that will happen.

Lol Dakota is so funny if u don't like her than ur dumb

and i was like LOL LIFE=MADE BYE

Travis' favorite planet is Venus

Matthew says that I remind him of Sailor Venus

i just