So like Ryland x reader š»where reader is so in love with Ryland but he isn't...
BUT IMAGINE reader is SUPER drunk and is with Grace and they just let it allllll out. Reader confesses everything to Grace about how much they love him and how they would do ANYTHING for him but reader knows he doesn't love them back and is cryingš„²
Reader is just crying to Grace telling how they feels for him and how they feel when he's around and how he just makes reader feel whole again be of him (let's just say they were not...mentally okay...depressed wise) but is also aware of the fact that he would never feel that way for them and reader is begging him to tell them the reason why and if they are the reason he doesn't like them
just need some angst...ALSO I LOVEE YOU AND YOUR WORKKKKššš
Iāll try also sorry it took so long
(Also Iām making this take place in college)ļæ¼
Warning: use of the term y/n sadly Im tired broļæ¼
I just donāt love you like that.
Ryland Grace x GN! Reader
Warnings: ANGST!! Sad, alcohol, and depression
To say you liked Ryland was an understatement, even the word love didnāt quite describe it perfectly. You pined after him, it felt as though he had like he had ripped out your heart and held it in his hand and everything he did was like he was caressing your heart and plucking at the strings of your soul.
You guys were great friends, unfortunately thatās all you wereā¦ friends.
It ripped you apart, you know you can tell him you knew the answer already. His love was scienceā¦
Youāre infatuation with a man had gotten so strong though almost every single night you dreamed about being married, kissing, playing, living together-you were on the border line of obsession.
Your heart was in a constant state of aching, Ryland clouded your thoughts, you were a good student not as smart as Ryland but good, but studying was harder then ever but at least that made more time for Ryland to be with you.
Which leads you to tonight, it was the weekend, you never partied you or drank yeah you were 22 and never had a drink or partied so what? But to night you decided the only thing to get Ryland off your mind was maybe to party a bit you would probably only get one drink stay with your friends have a good time.
Well you didnāt have one drink you had so many you lost count and youāre pretty sure one of them was spited, but seeing all the couples dancing and your friends dancing with men while you stood in the corner drunk out of you mind made you think of Ryland more and more and more which made you leave.
You were walking down the sidewalk to your dorm room, but you could barely walk in a straight line, the sound of the frat party in the background, it felt like 3 AM but it was more like 11 pm.
Ryland had stayed late at the library studying for a quiz. He was walking home when he saw you walking wobbly and crying.
āY/N?ā He called out as he walked in front of you, you reeked of alcohol, which was definitely something you didnāt do. āHave you been drinking? Are you ok? Did someone hurt you? God please donāt be drugged.ā
You latched onto him crying your heart out, your knuckles turning white from how hard you were holding onto his coat. Your words a babbling mess.
Ryland held you, his big hands made you feel like a porcelain doll in his grasp as you wailed into his neck. Ryland, preying that no one hurt you, picked you up cradling you in his arms.ļæ¼
He got you back home to your dorm safely, youāre crying had settled down, you still had big tears running down your face but your drunk brain was to occupied by ryland, he was carrying you, oh gosh this was a dream come true, you looked at him with half lidded eyes all red and puffy from crying. You were happy for a momentā¦ till you remembered that he only thought of you as a friend then the water works started again.
He laid you down on your bed and took you shoes off and your jacket, he got a glass of water for you a bowl in case you throw up but luckily you threw out at the party so youāre stomach was empty. āWhy are you crying? Did someone hurt you? Or are you just sad?ā He said it so tenderly you feel your heart stop. āI-ā you managed to say without slurring with your words through the tears and alcohol. He listened he always listened. āI love you-i love-i love you-i louve you i-fuuc-i lobe you-rylaaaannddd-ā you bursts into tears again you hid your face in his leg holding on to his jeans repeating the words āi love you Rylandā over and over with varying decrease of slurring and mumbling and crying.
Ryland was jaw dropping, the felt horrible, how.. how the fudge didnāt he see it? Your would followed him like a lost dog, hung on every word he said, you always wanted to know how he was doing, asking him science questions so he could nerd out for hours to you just so he stay longer. He loved being with you, you are his best friend, he loved hanging out, getting coffee and working on projects togetherā¦ he had lead you on.
āRyland please just take me Iāll be anything you want-if you like boys Iāll be a boy-girls? Iāll be a girl-please-please! I love you to much Im wrapped around your fingers-ā you cried looking up at him with puffy red eyes full of mouths of yearning, pining, loving, so deeply in love saying no would probably make you die from a broken heart. āI want to be yours, i want our hearts to melt together, i need you, god Ryland please! Please say yes, oh god please!ā
Ryland was crying, he couldnāt say yes, he didnāt love you the same way you loved him. He wiped away one of your tears.
āIm sorryā¦ I just donāt love you like that.ā
Wow that was a water festā¦ i didnt almost cry writing this you did!
Anyways, I hope you likeļæ¼!! Okie bye!!
