im a sunflower

Biggest thinspo is me honestly, 45/50kg me. With my tiny hands and arms my legs that looked small in everything. T-shirt’s that draped off me and only made me smaller 😭

When I was in elementary school my aunt would visit us for one week in the year. During this week, she would comment about my weight and how she was able to grab my fat. 

When my mom would take me to my yearly check up, I would suck in my stomach when being weighed hoping it would decrease my weight. 

When I got to middle school, my friends would talk about their weight and how fat they were. In reality, they weren’t fat in my eyes. They looked thin. I was the one who felt fat.

When I was in high school, a boy laughed at how much I weighed. 

When I was in college, I could only judge as to how fat I looked in pictures while I was next to people.

I am a 22 year old woman, standing at 5 feet 1 inches, and weigh about 135lbs (about 61kg).

I have always wanted to be skinny since I always saw myself as fat even in elementary. I feel fat. I am fat. I want to be skinny. I want to be thin.