Between A Dream And A Dream

I love moss, I love trees and flowers

A combination of purity culture and being ugly has always made me feel so bad for finding someone sexually attractive or even attractive in general. Like I feel gross and it makes me want to talk to girls less lol and I already have never dated at all, but now it’s worse, it feels wrong. And to a certain extent in this world it is true that if you’re ugly you’re not allowed to be a sexual person it’s played for laughs or seen as creepy

My Christmas tree is also still up because it’s still green lol I haven’t unplugged the lights since January

I complain a lot and some things will always bother me but I also got my first post grad office job, and I’m moving in June, I live alone, I have home cooked meals and I don’t need to budget my money to survive, I’m doing better than I thought I would be by now