make it so sweet.

the stakes were simply at an ALL TIME HIGH.

but they're at that point in the night when it's hard to keep their hands to themselves, and she's laughing, almost, at how easily haneul melts within her grasp, alice leaning in with all that greed, nose nudging against her own. she's listening, you know. because she feels it. that same painted on doubt that the both of them contend with, because what do you do, when you know the start is drenched in something less than SAVOURY. the both of them circling this, with the caution of those that had experienced the shocking highs of a rebound before, but, alice likes to think that she's learned a little better since then. she grins, nuzzling close, unbothered. "it's true. my heart is broken, my insides are tortured. from all the going out, and i can't stand being alone..." her lips grazing against hers, idly. "but i like when you come over~ and i'd be less alone at your place too...."

isn't she INVASIVE, digging in her claws. because doesn't she deserve a little reward for that dose of truth she's willing to spare? but as she's pondering over the ifs, the ands, the maybes of it all, there goes haneul, barrelling pst her and far more ready than she'd given her credit in being, her lips parting, her eyes widening behind those artificial blue lenses she was so keen on wearing, even now. it's like her heart's about to burst, beating, far too quickly, far too hard. it's demanding an answer and alice is the one caught on two left feet, oh, it's a taste of her own medicine, isn't it? a taste of realizing that she was the one left speechless!

and more than that simply wouldn't do, it also simply wasn't fair, not when haneul is willing to lay this much on the line fore her. especially trying to make sure that there was a timeline, a real one, that it was not just the fleeting affections of the highs that came from attention laid out in such PLYING FORM, but... before the break up, before... well. who knew but her right now, alice left chewing on her bottom lip as uncertainty flashed within her expression. "really?" alice was more accustomed to being the one amongst all of their friends that was considered too much, too loud, too annoying, and she leaning in with an almost impish glee, but to see her looking at her with such earnestness gave her a pause because...

... well, few people would have known her better. at least alice could admit that fact. looking for the her in this that was ever so always assured in her responses, and finding herself faltering for once. was that a good thing? a terrifying thing? "look. i..." hands gathered hers within her own to hold, to squeeze. always feeling that little sense of wonder whenever their fingers carded together like this, she loves is, she can't look away. "it's kind of AMAZING... how easy this feels... and i'm not really sure where it's all going but it's why i keep asking you to come, again and again. because i want to. i don't want to hurt you either. i'm also feeling selfish because... should i really be doing this with you if i'm not sure? but..." there's that grin, a flash of her more usual mischievous smile. "... i can't lie~ sleeping with you..." her fingers, curving along her jawline. "... it's so fun~"

she was alice: exaggerative, yet expressive. warm like the sun to those she did care for, always eager to lend a hand with helping haneul out — even with mundane tasks. she had by default an alluring personality and aura, but she also had a very deceptively playful side haneul was still trying to decode piece by piece. haneul being aware as to when alice was trying to tempt her was getting easier to spot but that didn’t mean it was easier to resist.

“are you really, though? that tortured?” now haneul was pushing alice back on purpose, “you’re always allowed over. you know this. you even have the extra key yourself.” the blonde reminded her with care, tone honey like and even her eyes gleamed with a gentleness. “and if you ever stopped by while i was out, at least hajoon will give you all his love… until i get back.” she was proud of her dog and took a lot of pride in how she cared for him, how she trained him and allowed him to flourish despite the initial challenges of his anxieties and being unwilling to socialize with others at the park. he was also very fond of human company and a proper people pleaser, but hajoon especially looked for alice’s company since she was so excitable to be around.

surprised by the shift in alice after what she’d revealed, it was an odd moment to feel the quiet wrap around them. yet, when alice asked if haneul really meant her admittance, there was a very small nod given in response. “yes. really.” despite a firm note, the blonde’s voice still remained small and as if she were treating the moment not only with an ounce of caution but with a whole lot of carefulness. her relationship with alice, even leaving out the passionate physical aspects shared, was one haneul was never willing to lose. she’d become far too precious to even think about letting go of.

both her brows came together when her friend seemed out of words, examining her behind her lashes, trying to brace herself. when her hands were taken, haneul’s instinctively wrapped around the other’s and she offered back a squeeze of her own. both of her thumbs padded over the back of alice’s palms. her honesty and the lack of the enthused sweetness meant alice was serious, leaving haneul quiet but she was also delighted to know alice felt things were amazing, her words. the familiar grin capturing alice’s face finally allowed haneul to breathe a little easier, and she was taken aback even by alice admitting she felt selfish. she wanted to respond but the touch on her jaw and the fact that she enjoyed being with haneul was all that really mattered.

even if haneul’s heart were ever to be crushed once alice got over it or got bored of it, she already was aware of the consequences before kissing her for the first time. her friend’s lingering fingertips on haneul’s skin left sparks rolling down her spine. reaching forward, haneul grasped alice by the hips and tugged her into her lap. one palm flatly rested against her back but with her free hand, haneul took the opportunity to brush her hair back behind her shoulder. “i’m glad you think so.” haneul’s face flushed entirely, a short lived giggle filling the tiny space left between them. “i always knew what the risk would be, alice. i know you don’t want to hurt me,” she clarified, her hand looping around to the back of her friend’s neck, tugging her face even closer to her own. “and i still decided to go through with it. that’s not on you.”

the size difference tho