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I saw it. How you looked at others. How you took candid photos of them and post it on your social media account. You never post any of my photos, neither do you take candid shots of me. I love being in photos, and yet you couldn’t take me one without me asking for it. They say, you always took candid photos of someone you like, someone you love. Am i loved? Or just wanted?

I’m so upset right now.

2019 now comes to a close. This is how your 2020 should be. Seems like 2019 just started right? As we are nearing the end of yet another year, for most, it could be mean new hope or second chance to be better, but for others, myself included, it could bring the worst anxiety. The past year hasn’t been much fun and kind at most times, but let me tell you this, you are here and you survived. I need you stop looking back because we aren’t going back. I want you to forgive yourself for being in situations that aren’t good for you for a long time. Let 2020 be the year when you stop accepting poor treatment. It should be the year you let go of anything that gives you less than what you deserve, drains your confidence and makes you feel worst about yourself. 2020 should be the year you realise what you have been giving the world and how much little credit you’ve been giving yourself. 2020 shouldn’t be the year you allow others to look down on you just because you want to avoid further arguments. It should be the year you let them know how much of a person you are and you can do as much as they do. Should be the year you revive your long sleeping desire to shine. Let 2020 be the year you take care more of your health and avoid anything that’s keeping you away from it. I wish you forgive yourself for expecting the world to be gentle on you. I wish you forgive yourself for being selfish sometimes and for all the times you failed on listening to others. Whether you’re ending this year happy or sad, victorious or rattled. And to all that we’ve lost and we’ve gained, 2019 is almost over! Let’s cheers to that!

Years back, i was so active in blogging that every year i pay tribute to Philippine Independence Day through my outfits. It was so fulfilling and satisfying for i am able to do things I’m really passionate about. Today, i try hard everyday to feel good about myself and what I’ve become. Not blogging or writing anymore, including. Not a day goes by without looking in the mirror and not missing my old self. Writing this today, because it’s one of those days again that i feel super sad seeing these FB memories, it may be melodramatic and shallow for some, but God, it hit me hard.😅😭 . #instastyle #fblogger #lookbook #fashionlover #outfitoftheday #ootdshare #lookoftheday #mylook #fashionable #currentlywearing #fashionblog #fashiondaily #fashionstyle #todaysoutfit #fashiongram #whatiworetoday #styleblogger #todayimwearing #wiwt #styleoftheday #vscophilippines #sinopinas #travelph #comeseeph #grammerph #itsmorefuninthephilippines #iphoneography #iphoneonly #iphonesia #iphoneography #focalmarked https://www.instagram.com/p/BymTy97F7w8/?igshid=y8sxrt9zgjra

Years back, i was so active in blogging that every year i pay tribute to Philippine Independence Day through my outfits. It was so fulfilling and satisfying for i am able to do things I’m really passionate about. Today, i try hard everyday to feel good about myself and what I’ve become. Not blogging or writing anymore, including. Not a day goes by without looking in the mirror and not missing my old self. Writing this today, because it’s one of those days again that i feel super sad seeing these FB memories, it may be melodramatic and shallow for some, but God, it hit me hard.😅😭 PS: stylewithinbyarey.tumblr.com is still alive😅🤪. . . . . #instastyle #fblogger #lookbook #fashionlover #outfitoftheday #ootdshare #lookoftheday #mylook #fashionable #currentlywearing #fashionblog #fashiondaily #fashionstyle #todaysoutfit #fashiongram #whatiworetoday #styleblogger #todayimwearing #wiwt #styleoftheday #vscophilippines #sinopinas #travelph #comeseeph #grammerph #itsmorefuninthephilippines #iphoneography #iphoneonly #iphonesia #iphoneography #focalmarked https://www.instagram.com/p/BymTy97F7w8/?igshid=5kqus525hjxj

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Here are my 18 Things from 2018: 1. FORGIVENESS IS A GIFT YOU GIVE TO YOURSELF. It gets easier the more you do it. And it’s not a favor you give to someone, it’s a favor for yourself. 2. GOD’S TIMING IS ALWAYS PERFECT. Cliche as it may sound but this should always be my ultimate reminder. For most, New Year means new hope or another chance to make things right, but as for me, New Year brings the most anxiety in me. Growing older means so much about being more responsible and legit about being an adult. With friends getting married, having their babies at this age, being successful in their chosen careers, it is inevitable not to feel envious and worried about your own situation. But God is watching and he’s up to make everyone’s life beautiful in his own timing. And. I need. To believe more in that. 3. LET SOME THINGS GO Do not waste your time and energy on people who doesn’t really care about you; and on things you still can breathe even without. 4. SOMETIMES ANGER IS A SIGNAL THAT A PERSON IS IN DEEP PAIN Pay attention. Everyone is struggling on battles we know nothing about. 5. MOST OF THE TIME, THE ONES WHO LOVE YOU WILL TELL YOU THE MOST HURTFUL WORDS. These are the things that we need to hear the most. 6. NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU Stop stressing yourself about the things or people that doesn’t concern you directly. Loosen up! 7. You don’t need to kill your demons just make sure you don’t forget that your angels are stronger than them 8. PLAY YOUR ENEMY’S GAME. You know yourself (i hope you do), when deciding on what action to do, always think about how the other party will react to it. Think about how they will play their game. Adjust when it’s a must. 9. SOME FRIENDS ARE MEANT TO BE EJECTED Being the problematic case that i am, and being melodramatic since forever, this has always been my mantra “Hard Times will always Reveal True Friends” It’s easy to define who are the real ones when you are left with nothing and when you are at your worst self. 10. SAY SORRY WHEN YOU ARE. Pride is expensive; relationships and peace of mind are priceless. Don’t get confused. 11. FAMILY SHOULD BE YOUR TOP PRIORITY Love your parents and always make them feel needed and respected. 12. COMMUNICATION IS A GAME CHANGER. Communicate to understand and not to reply. Listen wholeheartedly and then raise your point. 13. EVERYTHING COMES TO AN END. Pain, struggle, worry, uncertainty, sleepless nights. All. Nothing is forever. 14. YOU CANNOT AVOID EVIL PEOPLE AROUND. People aren’t always who do you think they are. You are so guarded, you have trust issues, you are cautious and is alert all the time, but still, there will always be these people who will hold your trust and mind hostage. Who will break you. Again. And you will be left with nothing. You cannot avoid them, perhaps just pray for them and let God do the rest. 15. SAVE UP Your now adult self will thank you later. 16. FOCUS ON YOUR HEALTH. Yeah, health is wealth they say but it’s more than that, health is life, it’s a sustainable thread and bond with yourself and the people you love and those who loves you. 17. GIVE MORE. LOVE MORE.<\b> There is a huge return when you give more; patience, love, honesty, understanding, forgiveness and care about other people. It pays to be extra kind. 18. LOVE THY SELF A LITTLE MORE. This year, I’m not gonna claim that 2019 is mine, instead, I’ll pray not to have all the good things, but all the things i need to grow and all the things that will help me give more love to others. Happy New Year Dolls! Cheers! Tata, Ar-Ey🎀

#ChooseDay: Could i really leave a job that pays? A lifestyle i had built? And just float away from this city life? I still have to figure out, but for now, i’ll just dream about it. . . . . . #quietthechaos #createyourhype #travelph #highsnobiety #thecreative #postmoreportraits #iphoneography #guardiancities #streetmagazine #iphoneonly #pursuitofportraits #iphoneography #seemycity #focalmarked #grammerph #primeshots #peopleinframe #igpodium_portraits #vscophilippines #sinopinas #comeseeph #meistershots #streetmobs #_heater #instagoodmyphoto #instamagazine_ #iphonesia #yngkillers #visualambassadors #folkgood #itsmorefuninthephilippines https://www.instagram.com/p/BqqhTlsFexO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=rrb1fkd55nw4

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It’s a Merry Day!❤️ . . . . . #outfitoftheday #fashiondesigner #fashionable #mylook #fashionblog #currentlywearing #fashiondiaries #fashiondesign #fashionstyle #fashiondaily #fashiongram #todaysoutfit #styleblogger #whatiworetoday #fashionweek #styleoftheday #fashionaddict #styleinspiration #wiwt #fashionstylist #vscophilippines #sinopinas #travelph #comeseeph #grammerph #itsmorefuninthephilippines #iphoneography #iphoneonly #iphonesia #iphoneography

Cheers to the Holidays ahead! ❤️ . . . . . #outfitoftheday #fashiondesigner #fashionable #mylook #fashionblog #currentlywearing #fashiondiaries #fashiondesign #fashionstyle #fashiondaily #fashiongram #todaysoutfit #styleblogger #whatiworetoday #fashionweek #styleoftheday #fashionaddict #styleinspiration #wiwt #fashionstylist #vscophilippines #sinopinas #travelph #comeseeph #grammerph #itsmorefuninthephilippines #iphoneography #iphoneonly #iphonesia #iphoneography

The night is young, are you?😄✨

GIVEAWAY ALERT!!! Good Morning dolls! Because it’s the holiday season we are giving away our favorite items as a head start! Stay tuned💕🎀 Follow @stylestitchph for more details😘 . . . . . #moneymaker #startup #entrepreneurlife #entrepreneurs #entrepreneurlifestyle #entrepreneurship #onlinemarketing #motivational #millionairemindset #successful #millionairelifestyle #businesswoman #inspiredaily #businessman #founder #businessowner #youngentrepreneur #startuplife #vscophilippines #sinopinas #travelph #comeseeph #grammerph #itsmorefuninthephilippines #iphoneography #iphoneonly #iphonesia #iphoneography

First of December, Happy Holidays!💚

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After a year of hiatus, something brought me here on my sleeping blog. I guess it’s easier to write when you’re sad. There was a phase in my life when i have had too many extremes. Exteme highs and extreme lows. The past year was different, i think it’s safe to say that i am happier. That’s why maybe, i went MIA too, ‘cause when you’re happy you need not record it, you like to experience and enjoy it more than to write about it. When you’re happy, you just wanna share it. I guess the Universe has it’s own way of making you wake up one morning feeling indifferent and making you realize something else. I don’t know if this is already part of their so-called “Birthday Blues” (but hey! It is still a month to go!), part of my PMS, or whatever it is, i am not sure, but one thing is certain, I am extremely sad. I feel unwanted and unloved. I feel that in my 27 freaking years of existence, i still dont belong in this world. There is a fine line between expecting too much and not being served what you deserve. I’m starting to question my level of understanding on things again. I’m seeing the version of me i hated years ago, the version i buried a long time ago.:( It’s hard to be feeling like this again, i am somehow reminded of the girl who has big dreams, the girl who has a huge trust in humanity before she was burned and bruised by them. After putting so much effort into so many things and people, I am still not the favorite. Not the priority. Where there are choices to make, there comes the high and the least. And I always wonder i always get the latter. I guess it’s easier to write when you’re sad.