Studylilo

Hi all! 

On behalf of the both of us, I would like to share that we have gotten offers from the universities of our dreams and we are elated to start school in 2019!

We cannot wait to start school and learn what we love teeheeeeee

19.11.18

I will be tested on biology today and I hope those topics that I am more familiar with will come out or else i would have to really try to get more marks in other papers.

I love biology but it is seriously so content heavy. Good luck to myself.

16.11.18

Half of my exams are done and I’m really excited for the rest of the papers as they are what I am better in.

Hopefully I would be able to get the practice i want to ace the papers, since there is no much time left.

Really looking forward to the end of exams. Getting a new laptop, learning new languages, working to earn some money and travelling...

Feeling great but a little nervous

these past few weeks i have been at home almost every day mugging

not happy about the days which i wasted but hey i did way better than last yr

Li is on her internship now and i hope she is doing well (hope i am too)

tmr’s the d-day and i am excited n hopefully i am prepared enough

[honestly im more worried about where to go during the hour break before the next exam they better let us stay in a room- i am so socially awkward]

btw my desk is a wreckage so im replacing a desk picture with a beautiful timelapse

여러분 안녕!

^ This was so difficult to type out haha I had to guess for quite some time to figure out where the different characters were.

Anyways, back to this life update / beginning of a new sub-chapter in my life. A whirlwind of events happened since my last post where I mentioned about the interview and how I hoped to be accepted into that huge company.

Well, turns out I didn’t get accepted into the company and was really bummed out cause friends/classmates who did not seem to want it as badly got accepted and I can’t help but stress over why I didn’t get accepted. I have to admit that I was moping around for a bit and tried my best to cover it up from my classmates/friends. Also, it was rather embarrassing for me to say anything about it after the results were out because my mood was boosted after the interviews and I had a positive outlook for the results but they turned out opposite from what I had expected. One of my classmates jabbed me by saying “she was quite confident about it after the interviews and test” and that was really embarrassing for me.

From there, I was kind of lost. I didn’t know if it’s a sign for me to go for final year project or self-source a company. One other classmate suggested doing the FYP with her and another acquaintance of ours. I was kind of hesitant but I didn’t know what else to do at that point so I agreed. And the story goes on and on so I shall just summarise it all haha.

It has been a roller coaster of emotions starting from the interviews at the huge company, followed by the rejection, then learning that my friend got into a company so I wouldn’t have an FYP group and concluding the journey with a self-sourced company accepting me. All of this happened while I was trying my best to focus on my last exam in school and I feel that I have been affected by the emotional and mental stress and only gave about 60-70% of my effort for my tests. I really feel I could have done better but oh wellxz too late to regret now :’) Results will be out in a week and I’m getting really jittery because I’m afraid my grades will drop too low or I might even have to remodule and study for another 22 weeks. (I REALLY PRAY THAT THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN)

In full on study mode nowadays and rarely leave the house

Its going to be over soon for the both of us

And we are going to make it

You guys too

-Lo

SAVE MY SOUL PLEASE! ANYONE OUT THERE JUST SAVE ME!

I am bored of studying even though I only have 2 more tests left and I think it’s really stupid of me to be lazing around at this point. Honestly, it scares me that my GPA might drop even further cause I know that I was not well-prepared and so far, all the exams that I’ve taken, I’ve regretted not studying just that little bit more and this feeling sucks. I want to be like “Never mind I still can bring up my grades next semester and start being more productive” but nope, not this time cause next semester I’m embarking on my internship programme. 

I believe that I’ve mentioned (i think?) that I planned to improve my grades so I can be eligible for scholarships but right now, it doesn’t seem like that is going to happen and I’m scared. Because if that doesn’t happen, I got to rethink my uni options and career plans all over again and that ain’t gonna be good cause it took me soooooo long just to decide on plan A and now I might have to make plan B cause my grades are insufficient. 

sduhcbwueinviowenfuyvbeu SAVE ME PLEASE I WANNA REWIND TIME BUT THEN AGAIN IDK I REALLY DON’T KNOW WHAT I WANT AND THE FUTURE SCARES ME AND I HATE THIS ANXIETY. 

ogei I just saw a quote that says “ Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson” and wow what a coincidence. Thank you universe for giving me direction in this maze known as Life. I shall proceed to study and end off my exams on a better note with this last 2 papers left. :’)

TOUGH TIMES

Is it really tough? Not really but that was the first thing that came to mind so that’s that.

Right now, I’m battling with my emotions. Emotions to get myself working for my upcoming tests and emotions to handle the results of my interview and fate for the next 22 weeks of school. It’s a tough time mentally but I know I can get through this if I put my mind to it.

Firstly, to sort out my emotions for the upcoming tests, I’ve decided to list all that I have to revise. Some are about a week away and some 3 weeks away. Nevertheless, I need to start preparing early otherwise I’m going to kill myself from my worries. Here is the list of shizzles I have to complete: I can’t get around to posting clear photos in between my texts and it irks me so i resorted to this :’) Please refer to the top picture thanks. Now that I know I have a shit ton of stuff to complete, I hope my mind will get into work mode from tomorrow onwards. 

Secondly, to sort out my emotions for the upcoming semester. So it is time for me to either be posted into an internship or final year project (fyp). I’m really hoping to be accepted for an internship position at a huge company that I attended a interview for. It was my first ever official interview at a company and I was super nervous but I managed to go through 2 interviews and an aptitude test. Despite my nerves, I feel that I performed better than expected. Also, the whole day in general was surprisingly pleasant. I went for the interview with 11 other classmates/coursemates and it served as a great bonding session for all of us as we chatted in between our interviews, joking around and laughing really loudly until we had to be shushed a few times. If I do not get accepted into this company, it is highly likely that I will be doing FYP and that’s not exactly my ideal situation. However, if I have to do it, I will put in my utmost effort. I believe that everything happens for a reason so I will trust that my stars will align themselves and lead me to my destination. The results will be out this week and I’m a wreck. I dream of the outcome every night and it’s affecting my quality of sleep badly. I guess I really want this quite badly. I hope it works out and I’ll keep y’all updated in a weeks’ time on my study progress and the results! 

I CAN DO THIS!!! ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE WHO IS STUDYING 💪💪 PUT IN YOUR BEST EFFORT AND YOU WILL REAP WHAT YOU SOW! LET’S SUCCEED IN OUR OWN LITTLE WAYS THROUGH HARD WORK 💗

It has been 3 weeks since school started and in those 3 weeks, I had elearning and did not study much. This term is rather short as we will be having our end of semester exams in about 5 weeks or less (OH MY😱😱) and then it’ll be end of the first semester of my final year. 

After which, I will be embarking on a 22 week internship (hopefully🙏) all the way till February and then THAT’S THE END OF MY 3 YEARS OMYYYYY TIME FLIES!!! I remember entering school thinking that the 3 years ahead will be long and boring but NOT AT ALL! I’ve met some great classmates who have been there for the happy times where we’ll be studying together and then laughing like maniacs from all the pent up stress and the tough moments where we rush our projects together till the last minute. wow i can’t believe it. 

SOOO with this upcoming exam being the final one I’ll be taking in this school, I’ll give it my best shot and give it my all!! LETS DO DEEZ

WARNING THIS POST IS REALLLLLLY LONG AND IM NOT KIDDING. IT’S MORE OF A PERSONAL REFLECTION FOR MY MID TERM TEST RESULTS SO FEEL FREE TO SKIP.

Today is the 2nd week of school (or 14th week of school, to be exact) after the June holidays and it’s when the actual teaching and learning begins. The 1st week was full of taking back results for the mid-term test we had the week before the 3 week June holiday and chatting about what to expect this term and minimal teaching. 

SOOO results. I would say i’m not entirely pleased with myself and expected to get better results for certain modules and some really surprised me. Here is a summary:

CLEANROOM: 55/75 = 74% = B (one more mark to B+ .-.)

BIOCHEMISTRY: 43/50 = 86% = A 

BIOMATERIALS: 38.5/50 = 77% = B+

BIOMECHANICS: 58/100 = D+ 

BIOFLUIDS: 76/100 = B+

BIOSTATISTICS: 83.5/100 = A

Note: These results are not final and each carries a different weightage of about 20% to the overall grade of the module. The grades that i’ve put at the side are just a guide for me to gauge my final results so i know what to expect. 

Let me talk about each result and my thoughts about it. Here comes the long ass part so just skip this if you don’t want to read my recount and reflection.

CLEANROOM: I was expecting to get an A. I mean i’m not mad with my B but i genuinely thought i would score an A for it because I felt like my answers were well-answered and it was one of the exams that i felt confident in as i was well-prepared and memorised the content thoroughly. I will say that i am disappointed and i will definitely work better for my assignment and the upcoming semestral exam that is 50% weightage to make up for this blunder that i do not understand.

BIOCHEMISTRY: This was one of the unexpected ones. After the exam, I was not confident that i did well and expected a B because i could not answer one of the long answer questions properly and it’s the highest marks in the whole paper. I managed to write something for it because i read the part before the exams and had a slight impression so i just wrote that down and prayed for the best. When the paper came back, i was awarded 5/6 marks for it and it did not feel good. It felt as if i was cheating although i didn’t, but i just felt like i didn’t deserve the 5 marks because i smoked through it. That being said, I will work on my memorisation skills, prepare earlier and study everything for the next test instead of trying to spot chapters because it’s always good to be prepared when the materials are already provided and it’s not even that much. JUST STUDY.

BIOMATERIALS: This was definitely an unexpected one because i did not prepare for it well at all. I was expecting myself to fail or barely pass because i only read through the content once hours before the exam. During the test, I smoked my way through some short-answer questions with some common sense and guessed several MCQs cause i had zero clue. When the teacher showed the list of results, i thought i read it wrongly because the person above me scored 53 and the one below is 91 (but i’m definitely not that cause that’d be a miracle with my half-ass answers) and so i was seriously thoroughly shooketh with my 77. 

BIOMECHANICS: This is my low point this semester. I was underprepared and was rushing to finish tutorials until wee hours in the morning but i could not. When i opened the paper, i was overwhelmed and could not think of the method to do for some questions and had to skip here and there until i thought of it. Definitely need to start earlier and be more consistent with my studying. Last minute work is never good for me (except for some miracles). 

BIOFLUIDS: I was quite disappointed cause i thought i could get A worthy marks.  I thought that i would only be getting 1 question wrong but i had some careless mistakes here and there and that caused me to have B+ marks. I have to be more prepared for this too. I only did the past year paper and tutorial before the exam and that’s definitely a no-no for the upcoming one. 

BIOSTATISTICS: This is my pride and honour hahaha. I felt rather confident after this paper as i was well-prepared and my cheat sheet served me well. Although there were a few questions that i felt iffy about, I felt like i could get at least 80 marks (which is A ). When i got my marks, I saw that i got 79.5 and i was like NOOOOO cause that’s just 0.5 marks away from A and i was kinda disappointed in myself. Then the teacher said they will round up to 80 and i was like yay but not really cause it’s not what i actually earned. Moreover, my classmate sitting beside me got 81 (that was the highest) and it just didn’t settle well with me cause i felt like i could have gotten an 80 or more. Not to gloat or anything, but i was just like “ogei nvm” in my brain cause 79.5 is already considered good considering that only 3 people scored above 70 and my classmates who are scholars did not do well, so i felt kinda happy but not really HAHA. ANyways, after the teacher (mi luv) went through the questions and we were checking our marks, i realised that she missed out on my 4 marks and so I got 83.5 (which is rounded off to 84) WOOHOOO and i was really happy this time because i worked hard in class, paying attention to mi luv, answering her questions and being 10000% present 95% of the time. SO basically, i’m really proud of myself for getting this mark and my investment in mi luv’s lessons really paid off haha. I’m not joking, i really love this teacher HAHA idk why but to me, she’s a cute old lady that teaches well in her own slow-mo manner and alot of my classmates don’t like her but see where that got them HUEHUEHEUHEU my investment in mi luv proved to be gre8t okai i shall stop gloating hehe. 

OVERALL FEELS AND CONCLUSION:

I should be more consistent with my studying and start earlier. Do my work conscientiously and properly. Do my tutorials on time so i can clarify any doubts during lesson time way before the exam period. I CAN DO DEEZ!

1.7.18

These past few days have been extremely unproductive and unfulfilling. I hate myself for not being determined enough. When will I better myself?

So with the exams 3 days away and little preparation, here are 2 main takeaways that i feel i should implement for the next term. 

1. PREPARE EARLY!!! 

Preparing early will definitely give you more time (duh) to absorb and soak in all the information to the fullest instead of just cramming them into your head just 3 days before the exam. It will also provide a peace of mind and you will not be anxious during exam season and have irregular sleep timings. 

2. CONSISTENT STUDYING

Consistency is really important because you will be aware of what you do not know and will have ample time to clarify with your teacher. It also helps you be on track with your schoolwork while having fun. Consistent studying means you do your notes once the teacher has gone through the topic, you read the notes before going to class so you get a rough idea of what the lesson is about and do your tutorials promptly. 

This is really all there is to studying and getting the good grades you want to. You know it so just do it. Stop being a procrastinator and start being productive. This holiday you should try the 30 days of productivity challenge to work on kicking this bad habit away and becoming someone you admire and aspire. YOU CAN DO THIS SO YOU BETTER DO IT BECAUSE THIS IS YOUR FUTURE AND THIS IS A BAD HABIT THAT WILL CARRY ON IN LIFE IF NOT RECTIFIED.

If you ever need to be reminded of your mistake, here is what you have left to do with 3 days to the first exam:

CCCRT = 2 practice papers and memorise 3 chaps

BIOSTATS = 3 notes, 3 tutorials,1 revision paper and 1 cheat sheet

BIOCHEM = 2 notes, 3 tutorials and memorise 3 chaps

BIOMATL = B to F notes and memorise A to F

BIOMECH = 1 notes, 4 tutorials and memorise 4 chaps

BIOFLUIDS = 2 notes, 1 tutorial and 2 practice papers

nope :/ BUT SHE DID 4/5 OF ‘EM SO LET’S CELEBRATE! 

well, it’s getting late now and i need sleep to function and think properly so toodles 👋👋