softie

how????????

me? an idiot? who gets attached to people way too fast? well yeah of course

You’re not asking for too much you’re just asking the wrong person

why did it take me so long to realize?

recovery isn’t perfect. it can be thinking you’re healed for a month then falling back to square one. it’s trying again and again to make positive changes to yourself. it’s mustering all your energy into getting out of bed to go to class. it can be accidentally giving in to old habits but then putting the pieces together again after a breakdown. it’s gaining confidence and being sociable for a while then walking past people with your eyes on the ground because suddenly they scare you. it can be incomplete to-do lists and days unable to function after doing so well. sometimes there are relapses and it feels even lower than where you started. but every time you decide to take a deep breath and start again, you have succeeded. even if you have to do this a hundred times before you’re fully healed, by wanting to recover you’ve already won.

Do yall ever just read those fanfictions where everybody is coincidentally gay in that whole universe? God i wish it were real.

i wish