lost in my own little world

I don't know what I deserve anymore.

I'm so in love with you and you barely act like I exist anymore, we used to be all each other cared about and now I'm the only one left caring. I fell in love with the way you smile, your eyes, and the way you kissed me. I fell in love with your personality, when we would stay up till 3 am talking about everything and nothing. You trusted me, I trusted you. I cared for you. I loved you. I love you.. And where are you now ? I'm just stuck drowning here waiting for you to pull me back out like you did when I first met you, because you made all the pain go away .

it really sucks when you can go weeks and weeks and think you're getting better and then one night it all comes back and hits you all at once and you don't even know how to handle it so you break down and go back to your old habits. And realize that your not better..you just got so good at pretending you were.

ill tell you I'm fine with tears streaming down my face.

because then atleast id be with you.