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also fuck america, Italy #1

it’s been a year

today’s my 17th birthday yay me!!

so uh ahaha treatment didn’t work the first time, so it took me a whole ass year and then i spent a month in residential. ur girl is happier than she’s ever been. for those of you still deep in your ed, there is nothing left for you here. there is so much more to life. there’s more out there. i promise you. i love you.

i turned sixteen a few weeks ago, i’m at a different school, i’ve gone to three different hospitals.

i still want to relapse.

you'll draw across the curtain after many years of rest, beams of light cascading on the hollows of your chest.

standing there and shown upon your sunken face, a smile. you'll grapple at your wrists and ask ‘was it all worthwhile?’

i relapsed. hard. starting residential treatment on monday.

i love you all.

feel free to email me and we can find a better place to chat. i still have access to my phone!

i’ve been in recovery.

going into treatment is penance for everything i’ve done wrong. this feeling, this isn’t what i wanted.

this is my final post.