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I knew about sydcarmy long before I even started watching to show so I was like totally mentally prepared to be the next biggest sydcarmy shipper right

So the show starts and I'm watching them interact and whatever and it's like ok whatever slow burn like all good let's fucking go

And then of course Claire is introduced and let it be known I was so ready to just like hate her or whatever cuz like I expected her to just be some kinda fling that carmy has before having a deeper realization of his feelings for sydney

But as I kept watching the show and thinking about it more I actually became a Claire fan (fighting words in the bear fandom ik) and was starting to root for her and carmy to work out

I was lowkey devastated with the whole fridge scene because it's very obvious that carmy is self-sabotaging because his trauma and mental state is scaring him out of a relationship that is genuinely good for him

As much as I do love sydcarmy (because there is some kind of tension there let's not deny it) I feel like they might just be better as partners in the kitchen rather than in a romantic relationship. You know how taylor dearden said in an interview for the pitt that mel and Langdon need each other desperately, not romantically? (Which is bull btw cuz everyone and their mother can tell that kingdon is romantic) That's how I feel about sydcarmy I think

Not to mention that carmy is just not good for Sydney. We've seen several times that can be a fucking asshole, especially in the kitchen and that Sydney does not want to deal with that shit and rightfully so

From what I've seen from claire, she seems more ready and willing to deal with carmy's trauma and shit but maybe that's just me

I still don't completely know if I'm team sydcarmy or team clarmy (? Idk if that's a valid ship name cuz I only just got into this fandom) and I guess we'll see how it plays out in the final season but I at least know that I am not here for all this claire hate