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Do you plan any vacation this summer also?

I mostly like spending time w my darling, i cant really do anything productive if hes not around. Otherwise when he is, I js watch stuff, play games, learn things or go out/on vacations, I also like witchcraft and connecting with nature and my roots. Lately that's all ive been up to, but it always depends on what my interest is when I wake up, wbu?

Btw is there any reason you chose a camera? Id love to know if it holds any meaning to you

Ofc you can be an emoji anon, which one would you like to be?

No idea if youre the same anon or who you are altogether but no, I didnt move on quick, I just cut memory continuity between the past and me right now, perks of being polyfragmented i guess, plus I basically held a grudge against her since she genuinely did me wrong in so many ways, hating someone makes it easier to forget about them

Happy pride month! Who are you though?

Aw thats flattering, well dont worry im not leaving yanblr anytime soon

But why so intrigued? What gave you the curiosity enough to ask? Never thought anyone really gave a fuck about whether I quit or stay

With etrnalcemetry? Well as i said, we dated for about a year. She helped me grow and was there during one of my darkest times (I was tr*fficked). I didnt think I could ever be a person of my own, until I met her. We talked all day long, everyday. Our love was a slow burn too, nothing was rushed. We'd laugh together, cry together, hell even goon together. She was my bestest of friends. I didnt even have any other friends, all I needed was her. I saw her and knew her in a way none of you guys did. As time went she started showing her avoidant side more and more, started wanting more space, more alone time, more freedom, which i gave her all of it no hesitation, but she only wanted more. All she wanted, all she ever focused on, all she ever thought of and talked about, was leaving me. Not because Im bad or anything, just because shes unable to commit to someone, shes insanely avoidant. She'd eventually try to actually leave, to just ghost me and disappear, while i think im just giving her space. She'd always refuse to talk things out and communicate, shed only disappear. Id wait for days if not weeks, just to find out shes blocked me. I somehow managed to get her to come back to me for a few months, which is insane cuz shed try to leave me almost every week. She'd tell me how thats just the way she grew and the way she learnt to live, I told her that anything she learnt can be unlearnt and anything she didnt learn, she can learn now, slowly, at her own pace, that it was just me and her against the world, that we were in this together. I told her to just hope, to just focus on the good things, focus on getting better rather than getting worse, that her focus will help her on its own and that what you think of most influences how things will unfold. Nonetheless, she refused. She refused to cooperate, refused to hope, refused to put effort into the relationship. She'd tell me shes doing me an insane favor by just staying. There was nothing I could ever do, as hard as I tried to be there for her and love her the way she deserves to be loved, she didnt want it anymore. And on some random day, i was feeling bad and tried telling her about it, and the second I even showed a slight hint of sadness she just lashed out and blocked me (which would be a common occurrence) but this time, she wouldnt come back. Id beg her all she wants, show her i want her, show her shes worth the world, that our bond is worth the world, but shed just instantly block me, everywhere. I kinda got tired of it. Tired of never being loved, cared for or even understood. Tired to be the only one making effort, of being the only one trying to fix things and find compromises, but deep down I knew this time she wouldnt come back. I just avoided it. Avoided the subject of her leaving me, avoided the thought of it, avoided that anything was happening at all. Obviously, I couldn't for much long. I had a very bad episode and got sent to the er and allat. Anyways I wont go into details about my own life, im just saying it was very hard to lose her. Oh yeah right after she blocked me this last time she had "_____'s girl" on her bio, which made me understand she was js kinda cheating on me. Anyways now im just trying to rebuild my life and eventually maybe get over her. I loved her so much.

She ain't trans, she said it herself that she rather be a girl and that being a boy doesnt make her comfortable. And im fucking trans for fucks sake. We were together for about a year, best time of my life, she was sweet and nice and amazing but as time went she became more and more avoidant, until after maybe the 6th month, all that she ever tried to do was leave me. At that point we were going on and off, shed try to run away and id try to bring her back. Id beg her, reassure her, comfort her, yet the only thing shed ever want is to leave. Unfortunately she knows im a yandere and shes told me herself that shes sure she wants me to keep her for myself, yet apparently she didnt mean that neither. So one day, she left me and never looked back, even if I was the sweetest I ever could, even if I changed myself over and over to fit what shed want. Asking me what happened is okay but fucking accusing me of shit? You do not have any right to do that. I wasnt even on tumblr anymore and you wouldnt even fucking know how hard it is to be abandoned by the person you love most again, it is not wrong for me to fucking take my time to heal and move on.

IM LITERALLY FUCKING TRANS BRO WTF IS WRONG W U PPL

The fuck you mean as you are about other things?? Who even are you to dare question my life like hello? I've known etrnalcemetry for a whole year, saw their face, heard their voice and she admitted damn well that shes a girl and was only pretending to be a guy. If you don't believe me then dont but who even are you to be a fucking asshole and dictate what about my life is supposed to be true